Thread: When is it going to be me about ME????

omg I havent been on this site for a while but from my previous post i will keep you updated..

I've been w/ my bf for 4yrs, I was pregnant and lost the baby, my prince charming(my bf) turned into not so charming after we got back together and got pregnant.

When we got back together everything was good until I found out he was doing drugs... That is like the biggest TURN OFF for me ever!!! not only tht but he was also smoking.. after I found that out I got pregnant.. and instead of giving me support at that time, he lost his job, his car, and kept doing drugs. It was so hard to find out he was on drugs bcuz for 3yrs he was everything I wanted and then out of the nowhere he is doing drugs lying to me ect..

When I found out i was pregnant he was happy but he never showed me any actions that he wanted to change for the better regarding drugs and lying and also getting a job so we both decided that he should move arkansas where his brother and stepdad were living bcuz his brother offered to help get him get off drugs and get him on his feet again while I dealt with my pregnancy and focused on me.. well I ended up loosing the baby and my bf had to come back to be with me bcuz of what happend. but when he was in arkansas he got a job and quit smoking and started to get off drugs slowly.

So when my bf came back he was a little better but the problem was that he had to start alll over again with the whole job thing. and his mom moved to arkansas as well and my had no where else to live so my parents offered to help him out to get back on his feet by living with us. Well its been 6months since he got back from arkansas and he barely got a job like last month. The whole entire time Ive been basically supporting him financially along with my parents.

But here is the problem:
he is very RUDE! i dont feel like a couple any more! I feel like if I am the man of the relationship because i feel like he makes the wrong step every time!!! He says im controlling and what not but idk how else to help him. I have gaven him all the tools he needed to get back on his feet: my car, money, gaven him job references, a place to live, payed his bills ect so he could realize that I was going to be there for him but in return all he does is be rude, argue with me over the dumbest things ever!! he even fights with my 8 yr old sister, and when I try to be serious with him he just say "o here we go again" or dont start" and whenver we argue he says the MOST hurtful things like: o should have nver came back, arkansas was way better, we shouldnt be together, you have never helped me in anyway," and so on wen he knows i have.

After we argue he usually stays quiet after and like an hour later he starts apologizing and says he didnt mean what he said but i feel like sorry aint gonna cut it! I have talked to him about the fights we have and how I couldnt handle it any more, just the whole financial situation and ever since we talked he has saved money and is getting his car this week, he hasn't been on drugs for the past 5 months, hasnt smoked, and has a job. But he hasnt changed his attitude.. he has BAD temper! and he wants me to always do things for him!! I have done enough for him and I feel that whenever I want something or I need to talk about something he like doesn't do anything for me! even wen it comes to a regular conversation about what I did at work or something.. all he does is like nod his head and thats it.

Even when it comes to sex... he only like pleasures himself... when i want more sex or something he will say "no babe, not right now ok" and that because he already got what he wanted, but when he wants to have sex we have to do it when he wants to! I have also talked to him about ALL of this and have even said that i feel like if EVERYTHING IS ABOUT HIM! Like wen i was pregnant it was about him getting better, not even about how i felt nothing! IDK i feel like ive fallen out love or something. Idk if its bcuz of the financial situation we r in n wen we get our own place he will focus on me?? not sure! idk what to do or what to think..

I have thought about being single and i see myslef happier but at the same time i do love him but idk if im in love with him???

any advise please???