Thread: Complicated Relationship

Hello Everyone,

I am into a very complicated relationship which till now I couldn't share with anyone. Its so complicated that I get confused when I think over it. Thanks to this forum that now I could know what is right and what I should do.

I fell in love with a girl during my college days and we were super close. We had an awesome chemistry both physically & mentally. We were all set to get married after college so we had made love a lot many times. Due to some circumstances, we mutually broke up in our last year and both of us moved on in our lives. I heard from friends that she is married but we haven't talked after college.

I had a very close friend in college who knew everything about us and coincidentally we got posted in the same city. We used to flirt with each other a lot. We used to roam around together after office hours and her boy friend (that time, now husband) never liked this. They used to fight over me as I always advised her to leave me, but she never liked this as we used to be very good friends. They got engaged. But then before i my travel to abroad, we met for dinner where i told her i love her (which i didn't). She agreed and said she was expecting this for a long time. I was kind of surprised but couldn't say anything. We made love that night and I liked her passion and sex both. She even told me that she can break the engagement to marry me, but i never wanted to marry her. So i convinced her to continue with her fiance. Till the time I was in the city, we were meeting everyday ending up making love. We are in contact now as friends to her husband.

Again in US, I got involved with a married lady elder to me. This time I was in love and we clicked mentally & physically. We met almost regularly after office. Needless to say that we made love. She always knew that I will get married someday and she was kind of OK with that.

Now I am married for sometime now. It was an arranged married and I was not interested. But now I love my wife. But at the same time I love the other lady also. I am confused. My wife is really a nice girl and thinks I love her and she is not aware of any of my affairs. On the other hand, the other lady understands me like on one else. She is the emotional cushion for me.

Please help me. Now its like I am lying to both that I am not happy with my wife.
Please tell me what I should do.

The post is really a large one but I thought I could pour my heart out here.