The New Beginning...

**MarkT** · 06-03-2011 09:13 PM

I have been thinking about this and you are right about the Up/ Down Mode. It's driving me crazy quite frankly- my mood seem to follow her mood, up one day and in the toilet the next. I have balanced myself out on this and she is still bouncing, just not as much. The bills are paid and the money won't last forever, but it will last long enough for me to get disability. Just talked to my attorney and he said I have about a 95% chance of getting it. He has seen cases of IBS not as bad as mine go through as recently as last week. He thinks I won't have any trouble at all with getting this. Everything is paid off and the stress for her hasn't eased up and won't until she sits down to write the bills and they are gone. That's when she will feel the relief.

**MarkT** · 06-03-2011 09:20 PM

I had another thought, she is more loving than before. Maybe she realizes that my love for her is real and I'm not playing any games. Maybe she wants this to work out. If she gets a divorce, she will be the only one in her family to do so. It would break her parents heart if she did, not to mention mine. I just think the finances for 3 years have played a large part in this and me being home bothers her. I do the dishes and work around here and she seems to be in a much better mood than before. I'll have to give it some time to really see a change in her. I'll stick it out, I do love her very deeply and hope we stay together... she is the air I breathe. We'll see what happens, but for now all I can do is all I can do.

**MarkT** · 06-03-2011 11:17 PM

Speaking of the UP and DOWN thing. My sister was diagnosed as bi-polar, ya think maybe? I always thought of myself as being on an even keel. Maybe I'm different in person that I come across on here. I asked my doctor about it and he said I have never indicated any signs of it. Now, I'm wondering if it's possible. The mood swings I have had lately are tied to her's as I see it, but I need some more input on this. Anyone see it? or even think I could be? I mean, I am here for honest opinions and help in my relationship and if it helps- hey, that's what I'm here for, right? It's 12:15AM here and I'm very tired -
Good Night All!

**CHANDLERS WISH** · 06-04-2011 12:19 AM

Good morning Mark did ya sleep well?

IBS creates your mood swings..

Bi-polar to me, is two different people, you've been consitent

**WildChild** · 06-04-2011 01:05 AM

Bi-polar people used to be called manic depressives. They tend to have very high highs and very low lows.

According to WebMD
"Bipolar Symptoms
The primary symptoms of bipolar disorder are dramatic and unpredictable mood swings.

Mania Symptoms
Mania symptoms may include excessive happiness, excitement, irritability, restlessness, increased energy, less need for sleep, racing thoughts, high sex drive, and a tendency to make grand and unattainable plans.

Depression Symptoms
Depression symptoms may include sadness, anxiety, irritability, loss of energy, uncontrollable crying, change in appetite causing weight loss or gain, increased need for sleep, difficulty making decisions, and thoughts of death or suicide."

There several different types or classifications of BP and it is often misdiagnosed. BPD (borderline personality disorder) may accompany it or be confused with BP. It can be a cause of postpartum depression, self mutilation, various forms of paranoia - in some ways the descriptions look like an emotional catch all, some forms very mild and others quite severe.

Proper diagnosis does require testing and professional evaluation. It does appear to run in families.

**MarkT** · 06-04-2011 05:59 PM

Originally Posted by CHANDLERS WISH

Good morning Mark did ya sleep well?

IBS creates your mood swings..

Bi-polar to me, is two different people, you've been consitent

Woke up this morning at 8:30AM. Slept like a rock... wife and son on a Boy Scout campout since last night
My sister is all over the map with both emotions and seems to be almost a split personality- seems very odd to me. My doctors have all said that I'm definately not bi-polar. Have a doctors appt tomorrow about this falling down thing. I don't get dizzy, I just lose my balance and I fall over. Maybe I'm a Weebles Wobble- but I DO fall down. Hahaha-

**caterpillar79** · 06-04-2011 06:01 PM

Have you had your ears checked lately?

**MarkT** · 06-04-2011 06:13 PM

My dad was severe bi-polar. He was either excessively happy or crying uncontrollably, alcoholic, drug addict and heavy smoker. Could never do anything like a normal person, either all out or nothing at all. I always found him to be very strange to be around. Walking on eggshells around him, he might want to fight or beat you when drunk. I didn't have a childhood at all. When he was stoned, he was as nice as he could be and fun to be around. I just never knew what he was going to be like. I thought to myself Dr. Jekell and Mr. Hyde all the time. I've always worked from around 8 yrs old, until 3-4 years ago.
Anyway, my wife and son will be coming home tomorrow at around 8:30. Can't wait to hear about his canoe trip on the lake. His tent mate doesn't like him at all. My son is very outgoing and not many people like him because he thinks outside the box and wants to experience new things. They want to sit around and cook hotdogs while he is interested in making a real meal, like spaghetti or a steak. We'll see how it went-

**MarkT** · 06-04-2011 06:15 PM

Originally Posted by caterpillar79

Have you had your ears checked lately?

Last week, they said they were fine. You think it might be an inner ear thing?

**MarkT** · 06-04-2011 06:24 PM

Balance issues started about 3 months ago. I just looked down my throat with a flashlight and tongue depresser. White bumps on the back of my throat, looks like strep- Great

What else now? I noticed this morning something in my throat that wouldn't come up or go down, been there all day and just got curious. Well... Now I know, time for a strep test. Just what else... I better not ask (looking up with hands covering head!)

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