Thread: Do I send it or not?

My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 1/12 years, he has never been married, is in his late 40's. I have been married, divorced for 6 years, have a child who he gets along really well with. In May, after a big party in his honor, I saw a diamond ring on the floor of his room, as if he had been planning on giving it to me that night you know. Well, it is morning when I see it. I pretend I don't notice and he never says a word, we go out to eat with his family that morning and I never let on that I saw it. These past few months have been devastating for me. Why doesn't he want me? We still go out and he doesn't act any different. A few months ago I saw a letter he wrote to an old girlfriend from 20 years ago. He was put back in touch with her in a weird way at afunction near my house. I should not have read the letter, I know, but something about it made me do it. All this time I am wondering what I should do about the ring situation but I am so weak and spineless that I never bring it up. Mon night we are out and he pulls out this person's business card and stares at it, just for no reason. I see this and it hits me hard. He can tell I am bothered by something. I leave early and say I can't stay. My child is with me and I am keeping my composure trying not to cry. Next morning I call to tell him why I was so upset and he is mad about me reading his personal items. I have never felt he was unfaithful and still don't. I agree it was wrong. I haven't spoken to him since. He has a big event Fri-Sun he is planning so I know he is busy and prob still mad at me. I'm dying inside. I wrote an e-mail detailing how I feel, about the ring etc... but I haven't sent it. I am prepared to accept the fact that if I bring up the ring etc.. that I may not get an answer I like. But do I send the e-mail or wait to see if he contacts me?