Thread: My relationship is over, but I can't move on.

So my boyfriend and I were together for 15 months. And in that 15 months we had our share of problems. I posted a few threads talking about the problems we had. In February we broke up and got back together and things were good until I think the end of May. In May he started acting really distant. He was spending a lot of time with his friends and I was being put second. It went on like this for a few weeks and I finally said if he didn't start treating me the way I deserved to be treated I would find someone who would.

Things got better after that or so I thought. For the 4th of July we went out of town and he really showed me the best weekend ever. He was so sweet and loving and I thought things were really back to normal. Three days later I was going through his phone...I found text messages from him to other girls that were extremely inappropriate and I broke him with him on the spot...and he didn't try and stop me. He didn't say he was sorry or anything it just ended. I didn't try and convince him to try and work things out...I didn't even tell him I missed him or did any grovelling....I did the crying to myself but I never let him see how hurt I really was.

A couple of weeks went by and I started realizing how much happier I was without him...instead of trying to please him all the time I was finally starting to do things to make myself happy. I thought I had moved on. I was going out with my friends and partying and even seeing other guys...yet anytime I was drunk and the end of the night started to come around I would find myself texting him and calling him...telling him how much I missed him and how I wanted things to be different.

And I don't understand why I do it. We've hung out as friends a couple of times since the break up and I realize how different we are and just not right for each other. We want totally different things out of life. But I'm still finding myself missing him. I don't know what to do. I want to completely move on and find the person who is right for me but how do I do that when I'm stuck on the past?