If he did actually say those words to you and thats not just what you assumed he thought, he definitely didn't help your sex phobia with that kind of attitude. When you are with the man that treats you like you deserve to be treated, and you feel love, you will be more apt to return that love in all forms.
And just because you don't like something now , does not mean you will always feel that way. Before my boyfriend, I could never imagine enjoying sex the way that I do now. The difference is how I feel about it.
I was also sexually abused but instead of being put off sex, I acted out sexually in my teenage years, though didn't really enjoy it. I always got pleasure in masturbating but when I would have sex with someone I was vacant, uninterested in my own pleasure, I also never had sex with anyone I had true feelings for. I didn't like performing oral sex though I would attempt it, I didn't want the guy to finish in my mouth and thought that it would be gross.
After falling in love with my boyfriend all my feelings changed, one... he put me so at ease that I was able to relax and let go with him, our sex brings me pleasures I never imagined possible. I am now extremely fond of oral sex and look forward to his ejaculations with anticipation , because I know it makes him feel good and I love it.
I never imagined I would , and here now I do. I am not saying you will feel differently tommorrow... I am just saying that don't think the way you feel now will always feel the same. All it takes is finding the right guy, or the right guy finding you. Someone that makes you feel safe and loved and when you are into him with all your heart your feelings towards his semen will likely change dramatically.




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