Hi there,

I'm new to the board but wanted to put in my .02 here since I can relate to how you feel Anna. Just because he likes getting head (what man does not) does not mean you need to do it to be able to hang arround with him. I started a bit late in my sexual escipades (lost my virginity at 21) and it took me a long time to feel comfortable enough with myself and the men I was with to give them head. Sex of any kind is a huge trust issue. If you are feeling insecure stick to your guns and do what is right for you. If you want to gain that self confidence you say you lack this is a great way. Stick up for yourself. Trust me ther are guys out there who will love and respect you for who you are. No matter what size and shape you are. I am a BBW and had many experiences before I settled down. I've had 2-3 boyfriends and more "just for fun" encounters than I can count. I always felt bad about myself when I got hung up on some guy even though he treated me like . When I figured out I did not have to take it and blew them off in return it was empowering. And many times others (including guys) on the fringes watching and will respect you for being strong.

Did not mean to ramble... Just know that you have lots of time and that this guy is not the only one out there. Be safe!