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I would like to fist start off by saying Hello to all the beautiful women out there who have subscribed to this website to help others, like myself, find peace of mind in many different aspects of a womans life.

Like some of you, I am too shy to ask people in my work area for advice, let alone family members. So I signed up to seek advice else where, from real women all around the country in hopes that my questions will somehow be answered.

I love making love to my fiance. I love everything about him, from the way he kisses me and softly caresses my body, to the way he holds me and softly whispers how much he desires me and how much he loves me,my body and soul into my ear. I love ever aspect, ever inch, of him...So why am I unhappy?

The reality of it is, I am over weight, and because of it deny not only my fiance but also myself from making passionate love. I always seem to look for an excuse, when all I want is to be completely wrapped within him. My mouth speaks before I can think, and everything comes out wrong. I have fears of becoming pregnant since we are not married, nor have a place of our own, nor are we financially stable to provide for a child. So I deprive ourselves from making Love. (yes, I've told him)

I'm so scared of becoming pregnant that I took birth control, I was on Depo Provera for about a year, everything went smoothly, until I decided to stop taking it. I'm not quite fond of injecting myself with hormones that mess with my natural system. Since I have been off the shot for a few months, my hormnes have gone hay wire. I become moody more often, upset and sometimes depressed. I don't have my period for months at a time..I take it out all on him, I dont know what to do. I don't know how to solve this problem before it becomes a real threat to our relationship. I love him dearly, he waits patiently all the time, he never pressures me. But i feel as if i'm not doing my part, as if he's not happy with me, as if our relationship is slowly slipping away and its some how all my fault. I want to have a sexual realtionship with him, but i don't know how to address these feelings with myself and over come them.

Also, although I'm not sure it is one of the reasons, I have neve ever had an orgasm. I have never let myself go, I don't know how to let myself go. And Believe me, my finace tries and is always willing to spend as much time as necessary for me to experience one..but I feel to be put on the spot so I become neverous and end up never having one..i really need some advice on all sorts of things, I dont want my relationship to end because my lack of sex drive, and I've always wanted to have an orgasm while making love..I need advice..please help...

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Sorry for such a long post..

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I would reccomend spending some time on your self before you do anything else. Why dont you take a day to get hair and nails done or buy a new dress or get new make up. Also try starting an exercise routine or a Weight Wathers class. Making yourself feel better about yourself would help a lot! As far as the birth control thing I would go see your doctor. There are so many great choices in birth control. Keep trying until you find one that works.

Include your fiance in the loving you part of the process. Exercise together and grocery shop together. One of my hubby and I's favorite dates is to go to the mall and try on things until I find something that makes me really feel pretty. He thinks it is sexy to see me in all differnt types of clothes and it makes me feel sexy to be in something I know he likes too. Hope this helps