Something happened irresponsibly!!!!

**wanton** · 01-30-2011 11:47 PM

I did not intend it and it just happened. I am crying, sisters. I have no one to share the grief save a few ones on this forum. I was partying gleefully and I danced with a few boys and girls. It was really enticingly engaging. The music pitched and I drank lavishly. My friends added more ounces to my glasses. I was in cloud nine. Then it was getting late and people started parting with one another. But I found the moment more alluring as the night deepened. I was not fully conscious, drunk and could not go home alone, though I got several calls from my parents.

One boy, tall and slender warned me to stop dancing more and urged me to go home. He said he would give me a life in his car. I followed him and he drove but his homeward. He told me that I needed a little bit rest and added that I had been reeling. But I was reluctant since I did not want to get screwed up going with him in that dark night.

(Edited erotic story telling of events)

But I am afraid after all this and my parents gave me a funny look getting me with that stranger. But this is something one of my lifetime's moment of ecstasy. I do not care about my infidelity. After all my life is mine alone and I cannot compromise my joys with anything. It seems too soon for me to flirt with someone new and yet I was fully not responsible for all that.

Am I an infidel, a ?

**kristalyn_04** · 01-31-2011 12:20 AM

I'm assuming you're in a relationship since you used the word "infidelity". You should own up to what happened and be more responsible in the future.

**wanton** · 01-31-2011 12:50 AM

Originally Posted by kristalyn04

I'm assuming you're in a relationship since you used the word "infidelity". You should own up to what happened and be more responsible in the future.

Yes my sis, I am gone and no more a true lover and I am off course.

**jns** · 01-31-2011 01:00 AM

I seriously hope you are on birth control. Otherwise it might not be your life alone. Beyond that you have to worry about disease possibly cutting your exploration short.

Having sex can be intoxicating as new experiences are done. However making love to your lover who can satisfy your every desire is all of that and more.

**wanton** · 01-31-2011 01:14 AM

Originally Posted by jns

I seriously hope you are on birth control. Otherwise it might not be your life alone. Beyond that you have to worry about disease possibly cutting your exploration short.

Having sex can be intoxicating as new experiences are done. However making love to your lover who can satisfy your every desire is all of that and more.

am on a contraceptive, something temporarily inserted inside. We had decided since we are still unmarried and are not prepared for the baby. I do not love the boy who made love to me. But it was something that got me turned on for a while. But I feel guilty about the boy who really deeply and passionately loves me. This is a shocking experience to me but I must admit I enjoyed the moment and that remains in my memory lane as a very lovely and exciting act. He touched me very deeply and I was never turned on so intensely

**Hopeless Dork** · 01-31-2011 06:24 AM

Only you can define what you are, thats all in how you see yourself... its not up to others to judge you. Do you what you want to do and be safe about it. A contraceptive thing inside of you will not protect you from sexually transmitted diseases, although condoms will protect against most of them. Why do you have a boyfriend if you don't care that you cheated? Don't you think it would be more fair to explore your sexuality with others if you were single?

**pretzel** · 01-31-2011 06:34 AM

Originally Posted by Hopeless Dork

Only you can define what you are, thats all in how you see yourself... its not up to others to judge you. Do you what you want to do and be safe about it. A contraceptive thing inside of you will not protect you from sexually transmitted diseases, although condoms will protect against most of them. Why do you have a boyfriend if you don't care that you cheated? Don't you think it would be more fair to explore your sexuality with others if you were single?

Those were my thoughts exactly. She needs to mature both personally and sexually before she enters into a marriage.

**BasketCase** · 01-31-2011 09:43 AM

Have you considered writing romance novels. Seriously this is good stuff! You have a way with words. For a moment I thought I was reading Nora Roberts

As far as your issue (aside from the great advice above) your a women, and your going to make mistakes. Hold your head high and move forward.

If you think it was the alcohol that impaired your judgement , looking forward, make sure you are in a more comfortable enviroment before indulging.

**CHANDLERS WISH** · 01-31-2011 03:32 PM

Wonton...

Would you explain this please...

You've recently had sex for the first time with your "fiance" I'm not sure if you stated he was a Virgin too, without re-reading your threads...however, 2 and a bit weeks of losing your virginity to the man you supposidly love, and taking a lover, after doing so, within such a short time span, means 1) Your not willing to allow your man to work with you with your desires, and 2) your not in love or else you couldn't possibly have done what you did...

None of this makes sense.

Were you reading, viewing love making before you lost your virginity? Your very knowledgable for a woman whom has been a virgin until a couple of weeks ago, I'm curious....

CW

**kristalyn_04** · 01-31-2011 03:34 PM

Originally Posted by BasketCase

Have you considered writing romance novels. Seriously this is good stuff! You have a way with words. For a moment I thought I was reading Nora Roberts

Oh but CW edited it... now people are going to wonder what they missed lol.

wanton, aside from the cheating, I would also be worried about pregnancy or possible STD's. Do you remember if you used protection? Yes the alcohol impaired your ability to make responsible decisions, but it's still no excuse. You chose to drink and get trashed, now you must deal with the consequences. You seem young, you have much growing and learning to do. Hopefully nothing bad will come of this, and this situation was a learning experience.