I am not even sure if the title "new to sex" is fitting being that I have never actually had sex.
I am 20yrs old, and I just recently had a tell-all conversation with my mother about sex. All my life she told me she didn't wait till she was married to my father before they had sex, but that he was her one and only. That was until I recently I opened up to her about my curiosities. I told her marriages can go south, most do, like hers is currently going.
My point was I didn't/don't want to "wait till marriage" before I have sex. My virginity is not a token to be won by some possibly undeserving man. That is not to say I want to have sex with just anyone. I want my first time to be with someone I love and someone who loves me.
My mother then confessed that my father was by no means her first and that she did live and die in entire lifetimes before my father. She had to tell me the lie so I would have some direction, and so I wouldn't equate sex to simple fun.
But I asked; why can't sex be just sex? To which she replied, it can, just have to be safe.
I talked to my older sister shortly afterwards, explaining my new view on sex. She relieved to me that she was no longer a virgin and hadn't been for 5years. All the women I look up to trying to "point me in the right direction" knowing full well that keeping oneself doesn't have to mean that.
I guess the thing is, I am 20 years old, and I've been "pleasing myself since I was 10". I know what I like, and I am constantly in the mood and or thinking about hot, mad, passionate sex.
Issue? I don't have a boyfriend, someone whom I can act out all of my inhibitions with. I feel like an inexperienced yet extremely horny girl.
Any advice?




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