OKay, first...BREATHE... No one is "mad" at you. I think your thread was misinterpreted, but obviously this is a deeper issue. You can't keep using the excuse that you won't change because you think all women will hurt you, so you continue to treat them like ********. That's not a very good reason. Instead of that why dont you treat others as you'd like to be treated. To get respect you must give respect. If you continue to treat women badly I can promise you, you won't find anyone, at least not anyone who is what it sounds like you're looking for. In order to truly find someone you have to be open. You cannot close yourself out. If you find someone that you think is attractive, treat her good. Ask her out and if she says yes, be a gentleman. You have to use judgement though on how people are treating you. If a girl only calls you in the middle of the night after she's been drinking, she's probably just using you. If you're always paying for her things and she doesn't seem to appreciate, it's probably using you. Those are pretty obvious signs of a woman who may hurt you, but honestly a woman just wants to be treat nice, respectful, with honesty and an open mind, and someone who is going to make them feel like the only woman in the world. If you can do that, you won't have a problem. It's just kind of common sense when it comes to reading people. Not EVERY woman is out to get you. They are looking for the same things that you're looking for.
I am not mad at you either, Actually I am proud of you.
1) For admitting that you are " hurting in your Soul ".
2) For Cleaning up your Language ( mostly ) lol, when it comes to Women.
3) For really wanting to change and realizing that how you treated Women was Wrong.
So here you have 3 good Beginnings to the Changes you want to make in yourself
As Liz said, treat others as you want to be treated, with respect. Try to think of them as People, Humans of a different Gender, that have feelings. Start anew, Start Now, make a Challenge/ Goal for yourself every Week.
Say the first Challenge/ Goal is your language. One it's a Penis, not a D**ck. Two you don't Bone Chicks, You make Love to and with them. Learn to Think like a Gentleman, one your Mother would be Proud of. When speaking to or about Women, Imagine Your Mom is in the Room, even if she isn't, you can still imagine her there and how you would talk in front of her.
I'd bet you wouldn't be saying I Boned a Chick, or had a Train with a couple of Broads .. Lol. Think also of how you would feel if some Guy talked that way or even thought that way about your Mom, " Hey I Boned her, she was a Good Piece of *** ".
I'm sure it would be Fighting words in your mind and if your Mom had heard, she be Hurt and Embarrassed that she was thought of that way. So Start with your own Thinking, deep inside and realize that the way you perceive things, will show in your actions and words.
Hey Hun, give it a try at least. Once you have faith in yourself, that you can Change Yourself, you will be able to change and Grow into a Man, some woman, will Love, Cherish and Respect.
Just one step at a time. That's all it takes.
You may fail at first and regress, but if you keep trying. You will succeed . And we are here for Support and to help you.
Lets Start on your next Post or Reply, and for the next week..I'll be your " Teacher " that Grades and Guides you
1)Watch your Language and try to find more Polite and Respectful Words to use.
2) Read some other sections that are Not about SEX, and Post something helpful or Positive in them, so others can see and Feel that you have Good Qualities and Experiences to Share
3) In Real Life, I want you to try and keep count of the Not so Polite or Respectful Words and Thoughts you use.Try to be Honest, if you catch yourself saying the F Bomb every few Minutes, keep a mental list ( Count ) or even carry a lil Paper or small Tablet ( the lil Note kind ). Put a Slash every time. Every night count them and total them for the day. Try to have a Lower Count the Next day, and the day after and so on.
******This will include thoughts of " this Chick is Hot, I'd like to Bang her ". If you can Change your thoughts from that to " This Gal is so Pretty, I'd like to get to Know her as a Person". Eventually you will learn to retrain yourself and Behavior.
It will SHOW in the Long run.
Wanna Try it ? I'm Game .
You have to understand that women enjoy and want sex in similar ways as men. Women are entitled to engage in romantic sexual relationships with the one they love or engage in a train with multiple anonymous men if she choses to. That does not mean she is any less of a woman and deserves to be referred to in a derogatory fashion. You feel that engaging in a train was wrong - ask yourself why. Is it because you feel it is a disgusting practice or is it you felt you took advantage of a woman who did not want to engage in such sexual behaviors or is it more that you feel you despected another human being? When you engaged in that type of sex, you didn't see this woman as anything more than meat? That is what you need to resolve within yourself. Don't despise the sexual behavior. Sex in just sex. The act inself in not abborant. The intent and reasons a person engages in it are. If you engaged in a sexual train with a self confident women who knew what she was doing, you all used protection, you didn't disrespect each other or think less of each other for engaging in that behavior, you would not feel so guilty.
That is the first think you need to realize in yourself. You cannot just find a women you respect and start wondering how to please her if you can't respect women in general. When you respect somebody, you will innately want to please them. You don't have to love them to feel that way. Wanting to please is the first step towards doing it right. The second is asking a woman what feels good. Each woman is different. You may find somebody who doesn't get pleasure from penetration. Then regardless of your size, it won't matter. Each person is different and you need to realize that a size size/shape/color chart doesn't exist universally for women. We are all different, but one think is universal, we all want respect.
Do you mean you want a monogamous relationship with a woman who is completely single, i.e no strings attached? Or are you saying that you want a monogamous relationship with no strings attached?--Because this wouldn't constitute monogamy. It's a little difficult to understand what you are saying with all the runons.
"If you are resolutely determined to make a lawyer of yourself, the thing is more than half done already." -Abraham Lincoln
It sounds like you're tired of just having meaningless sex and you want something more. If that's the case, then stop worrying about the sex and just find a woman who likes you for you and vice versa. Treat her like a queen, as you say you want to, and she'll have plenty of sex with you without giving two hoots what size your penis is.