Thread: Serious Sexual Problem !!!

Originally Posted by bluesapphire315

It will take some time to get better, it may take many months or even years. Try not to get discouraged. Remember, small steps is better than no steps at all! Keep going forward!

I'm sure that you do feel terrified when you go to these appointments, why do you feel that way? is it because you are afraid that you are being judged? It is important to be 100% honest with the doctor about what you do and how you feel. Being that way will get you the best possible treatment for you. There are MANY medications out there for all kinds of problems/conditions, etc.. I'm sure there is something out there that could help you, the hard part can be finding the right medication that you have the best response to. However, it might not be as difficult once the underlying problem is figured out.

Sometimes when people have to get hospitalized, it doesn't always mean that they are there for a long time. Sometimes its a day or two just to observe what goes on, your feelings, etc. which also would help in the treatment process but its not always used.

Keep us updated with how you are doing!!

HI bluesapphire315

Erm i dont fancy the thought of this sexual issue taking months or even years, ive been asking for help with it for nearly 3yrs now and only the past 5months things have started moving forward, and now i just want to stop what im doing before i get so curious about sex, let alone get to the point i dont care if its an adult i expose and masturbate to or if its a young girl or boy and i just love being seen and then the age dont mean a thing the thought of that freaks me out but i still get very very horny to the point i get hard, mastrubate, cum and although ive just done the deed could be 5seconds after im fully hard again and it sucks.

I always get scarred when i see the one shrink, but now im seeing this new dr who deals only with the sexual side of things, and worst still shes at a local medium mental hospital and i dont know whats going to happen, the thought of her admitting me scares me to the point i have butterflies and make myself sick as im that scared, but i also get scared when i become sexualy aroused also, but its i dont know whats going to happen sometimes i think maybe i need to be caught and reported for them to start doing soemthink were i dont become horny etc, its like im seeing both doctors and nothing seems to being done, unless its becuase im not going out in public places and esposing myself to family, friends and strangers and masturbating to them to orgasm, when im horny im out of control and i dont care who i upset but after ive made myself cum the hate and guilt hits me hard untill i become aroused again, i just dont know what will happen next, its like theres two hills and a balls rolling between each hill but im scared the ball will go over the hill and i become so turned on i start exposing myself to kids and i DO NOT want that to happen, if it did i would kill myself. so im scared very.

Im usualy always 100% honest with both the dr's i see, but sometimes i think to myself how much i need to be honest, i always think about sex and even gay sex becuase what i ment through at school, i even masturbate to being abused at school by the two girls and a boy, i think about friends alot sexualy (di and nicole) and other friends, i have wierd sexual fantasys, i even goto the local men public toilets as they have little holes were u can see into next cubicle and i go there becuase i want them to see me masturbate, even when im with either Dr's i get sexualy aroused and so desperate to masturbate and drop my trousers, you know im just terrified i cant see away out of this, and worst thing is i see myself as some pervert or sex offender and i hate myself so much becuase i have no control when my becomes aroused adn then dont care what i do, i really dont know what will be around the next corner, im talking to nicole alot when shes on and it gets very very sexual and that hurts me as i think of her as a daughter but when im horny i see her as just some girl off the net, but once ive cum again its like a six month wight dropped on my shoulders with guilt, shame you know it sucks my penis is running my life and i get so depressed and lonely and think suicidle thoughts, even hit myself between the legs, i dunno i just want to be cured like yesterday but i dunno....

Anyway i will shut up now, i hope the above makes sence bluesapphire315 or anyone else.

cheers
carl

You have a lot of guilt when it comes to sex. You need to let your psychologist work through that with you. Let him/her work through what you went through at school. Stick with it. S/he's going to have to rewire you when it comes to sex to downplay the exhibitionist in you. A little bit of "wanting to be caught" is okay; really trying to get caught is, as you know, wrong.
There are plenty of drugs out there that change libido; I'm surprised you haven't been prescribed an antidepressant yet (not because you might need one, but because doctors are known to really push xanax and things like that.) Keep on trucking and stay strong.

Originally Posted by Little

S/he's going to have to rewire you

Goto say little, when i read that it made me chuckle abit, never heard that before hehe.

Goto say, i go back for my second visit tomorrow at the hospital and again im sick with nervs and terrified again, wish she could do somethink so i cant get an erection, been masturbating in public and exposing myself, i hate myself so so much i cannot stop.....sigh life sucks.

You must feel discouraged, but remember that you need to keep going to your visits in order to get the proper treatment. Let us know how things go.

Just got back from second visit, and im not going to say im not disapointed, feels like a waste of time as she said thats problery the last time she will see me, and she will get in touch with the other therapist and work from there, she hasnt given me any medication to lower my sex drive at all, infact shes not given me any medications at all, so whats the point i go for help and get nothing, she asked if u would rape some one as im curious about sex, and i was honest and answer was no i would never do that, but i admit i didnt tell her i think about it in fantasy only, plus she didnt ask about the 14yr old, but asked about what happend with her mom, i dunno just feels im getting no were with both the therpists, just a waste of time, and to me feels like i have goto jerk off infront of a little child and for her to report me for them to pull there fingers out, she says me wanking in public isnt so serious as im not doing it every day or dropping my trousers and wanking untill i cum, i dunno i feel like at min and dont know what to do next, whats up with them do i need to hurt some poor bugger to get the help, really down and fed up and im sorry im posting here when many of you might have your own issues, so maybe i shudnt bother as people dont seem to give a anyway especial doctors etc.