Both Doctors (Judith & Louise) have both classed me as a paedophile, although i havnt done anythink accpet having strong thoughts, and now louise is talking baout some kind of register, plus put me in hospital for treatment and medication, and shes sudjested castration and chemical castration whatever that is, sigh i didnt think exposing myself, and masturbating in public and whats happend with nicole and others that would get me in so much bloody trouble, just dont know what to do i cant help having the thoughts i do, cant understand why im classes as a pedo when i havnt really done anythink to a young girl/boy....!

Scared
Carl

Didn't you expose yourself to a young girl? That is doing something to a girl. You being registered and labled a pedophille is a precautionary matter since you are having strong thoughts and have exhibited a lax in control. How long until you loose full control and molest or rape a girl or boy?

i had to see louise last week, and she went into full detail what happend with nicole (14yr old), and she asked alot of questions about young girls, as i told her i like schoolgirl uniforms, and she asked alot of questions, i had to go into full details what i went through at school which was upsetting, and shes found out although it was pure it also turns me on now, and she thinks i will do somethink to a young girl/boy, yet i wouldnt hurt a soul and i know i wouldnt, but from what i told her and what she asked, shes said im a sex offender although i havnt or wouldnt do anythink but i still need to be put on the register as a paedophile, fs shes takin the p i told her i wouldnt hurt anyone and i wouldnt yes im a virgin and theres times im dieing to have sex with a girl but doesnt mean i will go out and hurt someone, i do goto mens toilets (cottaging she calls it) and she went on to say what if a young boy comes in wouldnt i want to do things and answer was no not if he didnt want to but i would force anyone, but she seems to think i will, she wants to get me on the register then she wants to get me maybe castrated or atleast chemical castration so my cant become hard, cant believe this as come to this, yes i have a serious problem and im very scared whats why i first posted here, as i am terrified i wouldnt thought sexual urges would depress me so much, and now its let to both judith & louise (Dr's) to class me as a sex offender and label me a paedophile when i havnt done things to them, i may look and get turned on but i would never hurt anyone like i was when i was younger, this just all sucks and in away i wish i didnt do and seek help and advice as im now even in a bigger hole then i was firstly, and the way its going they will make it so i no longer have a sex drive just sucks.

Carl

Damd, the girl was 14... She was the daughter of the Mother whom allowed Carl to masterbate in front of her. She was married.

The girl, caught him in the toilet. But the last two years, she has emailed photos to him of herself, told him to do things to her, etc, etc,

I think they have a name for those girls?

Carl, you have done nothing wrong to date, you've always been 100% honest, out of which you've told the that you "would"...

That is enough to scare the........out of them.

Even though you don't want to...

You may even not.

It could be Nicole and her wicked ways, driving you.

You know you do need help fact.

And, i stated before, seek legal advise, as well...

Take care.

CW

I've read your thread and a lot of ppl have given you good advice and i'm glad you are seeking professional help. One thing you repeat constantly is the guilt. Have you ever thoght about forgiveness?

Forgive youself and go right back to the beginning and forgive the young carl who was involved in the sexual embarassment for cumming to soon. Forgive the carl that was sexually abused at school. Forgive the carl who feels sexually humiliated all these years.

you are not 12, 14, 24, 35, ect you are no longer that person but you carry deep wounds and memories. Forgiving yourself and everyone involved does not let them or you away with what you or they have done but it releases you from this pain and may very well help on your path of recovery.

You can not change the past but you don't have to be trapped there any longer. Today is a new day. Recognize your triggers and have an action plan in place on how to cope with these triggers. You have the power to change your behavior .

Behavior therapy is all about taking a maladaptive behavior and making it adaptive to allow someone to move on. if you look up case studies on behavior therapy therapist have seen great progress in patients in as little as 6 weeks. They use flooding techniques.

wish u all the best

Will never forgive myself, dont think much of me anyway got more respect for a toe nail then i do myself, i have 100% pure hate. simple as that.

And if im being honest, if i wasnt such a wimp i definitely i know for a act i wouldnt be here to type in the forums if im truthfull, but shows how my life is im still here, oh well nevermind just being a total pain to you all now posting here.

carl

Young Carl I think what she wrote was excellent and very good advice.

You have warmth and a sense of humor, and you've gotton on with a couple of nice people in your life, you hate sides of you, don't hate yourself 100%, hate 50% and work on that past, to lessen it....

If you were a total pain, we wouldn't bother replying True?

Guess it shows you how we are "still here"...

CW