I do get close to orgasm, but then I stop myself because I feel a bit scared of letting go like that...

I will try those, thank you silvertae.

Don't feel scared. You're still in control! It's you taking control of your body to give yourself pleasure. You're directing the show; your body is just responding. It's not as if you're yielding control to someone else. It's kind of empowering to know the pleasure you can wring from your own body.

I guess looking at it from that angle...

Thank you!