i saw him today

[geogeo]

I saw my ex today. whilst driving home I saw him unloading his car. I thought I was getting strong but when I saw him I felt like my heart had been ripped out. He seemed to be fine just going about his daily stuff. He has no care for me or love anymore. When I got home I found he had taken his bike from the back of the garden. All he cares about is getting his stuff back and nothing for me. How can he be like this with me? We spent 3 years together and he can walk away so easily. i have heard nothing from him and he is just so cold towards me...............It hurts so bad what can i do to take this pain away I am desperate......I want him back so much and cant stop thinking oh him.I feeli sick all the time...cant eat or do the smallest of things..i want to ring him so bad but am so scared what he might say to me...

[Passion]

Don't ring him, you will be dissapointed I was whenever I talked to him it just confirmed what he wanted and It would always leave me hurt also I would learn new reasons why he did not want to work it out. So at the end it turned out that my gut feelings were real and he had left me for another women. I am now scared to talk to him and hear more awful news just move on. It will be easier. I know it is hard but we just have to do it for ourselves because if we don't it will just break us even more.

[geogeo]

yes you are right I know to phone him is wrong I feel it deep down and I could not take anymore pain and i know if he wanted to be with me he would not just care about all the stuff he can get back from me. It makes me feel so angry that they can do this to you. It like they just turn a switch and all the feelings go and they dont remember the good times only the bad. It hurts so much inside it really does. how can you trust anyone?

[JWB_pof]

geogeo, i feel for you in the most weirdest way.
as i guy i am to be a strong person and let anything roll off my back. not let my feeling shows, or hold any and all tears from falling. but you know what, i too have a heart and strong feeling for anyone who is special to me or i fall in love with. if i am to talk about it, show emotions then i am considered weak or as some may word it a . but its me to feel the loss of someone i loved very much.
your story is the same as mine and many others. i am sure the things inside of the story are different such as how much time spent, conversations, etc but that fact remains the same, they left without saying a word. leaving you with all sorts of thoughts and no clousure. it plain ol sucks to be blunt.
do not call as what was written is so true. you will only find yourself hurt more and it will take longer to heal your wounds. nothing hurts more than the lose of a loved one without reason. you are not alone and not the only one who ever had this happen to them.
try your best to be strong. listen to your heart, heal your heart. heal yourself. it is hard but needs to be done.
they left for a reason, known or not. its thier loss not yours.

[Lakerat]

JWB is right...try to be strong..and we hurt just as you do.

AS bad as it is seing him...I belive that as much as it hurts ..it is a part of the healing process..seeing him.....seeing him with another...if feels as if its tearing your heart out..and maybe it is for a time....but these are things we need to deal with to be able to get on with our lives...I think we can never truly get over one without feeling this pain ...pain..tears ..anger...sadness and many outher emotions...
are all part of the healing....

I look at it this way......every day you get thru is one day closer to finding happiness again....what type of person would we be if we could walk away from a relationship...and feel nothing...

Life is never ALL good or ALL bad...and there is posative in all....sometimes its just a lil harder to find...there is light at the end of the tunell...just watch for trains

[geogeo]

Thankyou for your comments. I had a really difficult new year and I cried so many tears. I got so many happy new years but the person I was going to marry could not even manage to wish me a happy new year. I know it is probably the way he deals with things but it doesnt make me feel very good inside. Its strange when you split with someone like this because you remember memories that have not come into your head for a long time and it really cuts you up inside. I want to not hate him for what he has done but I feel it welling up inside. Im meeting a guy tonight that I have never met. Kind of a blind date-been fixed up. I dont want to go as Im still in love with my ex but he seems like a kind person on the phone.... and I guess it will get me out. So worried he will reject me or think Im ugly ...so scared. I have no confidence left at all and dont see why anyone would want to be with me. One person on this big world has done this to me and I dont know how to get back the confidence and stop the pain.

[Lakerat]

Maybe ...try not and think of it as a date....but as the meeting of a potential new friend...maybe as someone you can spend some time with..get out and forget your troubles with for a time....IF ya never get out ...youll never know whats out there..

Wonder what he thinks...feels....its possable he has the same fears as do you...
confidence can be gained from doing things that you might not really wanna do but by doing and succeeding...baby steps...remember..your starting a new life..new beganing..its best to walk before ya run....New Year..new life ..new goals..can/will be scarey at times....set your goal...but remember to have smaller ones along the way ..

good luck with your ..potiental new friend...

Hope this New Year..brings you new found joy.

[geogeo]

I met with this guy last night we got on well and yes you are right I met another friend. We did get on but am not ready for anything serious. I was really sad when I got home as it reminded me how hard it is to start again and I was shaking. I felt really sad and tearful because all I could think of was my ex and why he does not miss me and how he could just walk away from us like that....... My life feels so empty and I feel so lonely coming home to an empty house.....I miss him so much and just want him back so bad