i want to be a better me
like when u feel that the world closes it doors in front of you and you fell like you just want to cry and scream![]()
i want to be a better me
You tell the World, that they can't....
Your too strong to allow that to happen, and you pick your butt up off the ground and FIND the SOLUTIONS, that are creating those problems.
Life is full of ups and downs.... That's life.
There are many hurdles to jump.... keep jumping them..
When things seem bad, we forget the good things..... fact
For everything that is negative - There IS a possitive....
NEGATIVE .............................................POSSI TIVE
Why not write them left and right, out of your negatives, what can you find about it that is possitive.
ie) I really loathe my job...................But, it gives me income for now until I find a better one, so my solution is to send off my Resume to the jobs I like, until someone accepts my position... That is my goal and I will achieve it...
CW
Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
I cry and scream lol... then I realize I'm being irrational and do my breathing and thought stopping exercises, then find my happy place, do more breathing exercises... or sometimes I just masturbate as it releases serotonin.
i kno that there are ups and downs but i think mine is taking more (than it should i mean i don't remember me happy ''like truely happy with all my heart'' since two years may be!!!i want to gfind a happy plce
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I do not recommend this to anyone but you asked a question and I will answer truthfully... I do my best not to let things get to me but as I've said in other posts, I've had a really rough life. From the time I was born even up to now.
When I get very depressed I self mutilate. Yes, I cut or I bruise. I've tried burning but that pain is just too much. Other times I have self medicated with prescription pain pills (Vicodin), anxiety pills (Xanax) or even over the counter cough syrup. At one point I was taking 6 Xanax at once when the recommended dosage was 1/2 of a pill.
At this point I am just back to the cutting again. I haven't self medicated in a few weeks. I did however cut last Sunday. 60 slices to my left arm. Believe or not, that isn't bad for me.
I do my best not to do these things and I am in counseling. I'm trying.
"All the beats and melodies keep realities at bay but what happens when the records done and starts to fade away? Alone within myself again, I try to veil away my pain. The dirty grey surrounding me 'round..... And now I hear no sound."
Your bright, intelligent, have a new man in your life, seeking counseling, I hope that's enough reasons now, for you to realise that over dosing pills, or cutting are not worth it anymore...
I won't say anything futher, as I will be hi-jacking the thread... But, it's not worth doing anymore, leave it in your past, work on your future..
CW
Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
ok what if u turn bak to ur ex!! i mean not in love again but as just go bak to him as friends u know .. like u miss the way he listens to u and stuff!! i know this sounds normal but what if u turn bak to him while in the past he had a fight with ur mom!! :S
So, "friends with benefits?".......
Or, just as "friends", someone to turn to at the moment that you need?
Regarding, him having a fight with your mom, depends I guess, if he verbally abused her, it may hurt her you doing the first one, if it was just a fight, then she has to understand, your a big girl, you respect her and you've made it clear that he is never to speak to her that way again, however, you, personally need him as a friend at the moment and she should respect you.
CW
Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
I think its natural to be depressed sometimes. If we never felt depression we wouldn't understand what it means to be happy. Depression only becomes a problem when it is ongoing days lasting into weeks and you are not able to enjoy anything at all.
When feeling a little blue, a little down in the dumps..
Fresh air and sunshine are 2 of the best things you can give yourself, going for a run - walking your pet or just sitting outside on the curb to collect your thoughts always makes me feel a little more centered.
Calling a close friend, or coming here, or writing in your diary and just venting getting all thats upsetting you, all your fears and worries, anger and frustration, all that is negetive and upsetting you, let it pour OUT of your body and IN to the air to disipate and be gone.
Treat yourself. Take a long hot bubblebath, paint your toes.
Cheer up someone else. If you have an elderly reletive, pay them a visit, make someones day a little bit brighter if you have the opportunity, pay it forward :-) Sometimes making someone else feel good does wonders for the soul and uplifting your own spirits.
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