I am suffering severe PMDD symptoms!

[butifulsunshine]

Hi my name is christine and I have severe symptoms of PMDD. I am starting my second month of Yaz and just went through 2 of the worst days I have had in a few months. I truly feel like I am going crazy or maybe have split personalities! My irriatabilty and lack of patience for the people around me during those few days causes me to feel so guilty about it for several more days! My boyfriend has no patience for me and adds to my already overwhelming emotions. I really don't know how long I can go on like this! Does anyone have any suggestions for me?

[NickyDonkin]

Hiya, I'm new to this site and have been reading lots of peoples posts but yours really got my attention.Everything that you said was like reading about me. My aunty calls me dr jekkyl n mr hide but that is what things are like.

I am going through the worst feelings ever have experienced with this PMDD, It got so bad I tried taking an overdose. I feel like Nicky, real me, has gone and all that is left is a shell.

I have tried evening primrose, Agnus Castus, and Black Kahose which are herbal. Ive been to my GP begging for help and was given antidepressants and hormone tablets which have made me worse. My desisionn now is to not take anything other than Evening Primrose. What I tend to do when I know I'm heading off into a "lost it" moment is leave the house and go for a drive or just go for a walk. The things that happened 3 m#weeks ago when I tried overdosing have hit me with such shellshock and devestation I have made the mistake of shutting myself away from everyone and everything and it is so wrong to do that cos now I'm seriiously at my lowest ever point and feel i'm always going to be like this.

I forced myself out yesterdayand although didnt feel like trip out it did make a step in the right direction of getting outtaa house.

My Dr has suggested either r#temporary menapause or hysterectomy as final options. Drastic but its what im going to do. Thing is there is so little help or anyone understanding to help deal with this terrible problem we suffer its very scaring n lonely.

I hope you get bk to the other you and hope my little reply helps in sum way.

Take carexx

[butifulsunshine]

Hello Nicky,
I am sorry to hear how things are going for you. I can so relate!! I went through so many years not knowing what was wrong with me and now looking back all of those spriling out of control feelings stemmed from my PMDD. The guilt I would feel about the things I would do and say during my out of control feelings would linger and for me the guilt would make me feel so bad and helpless. Now that I have reconized and know what is going on has helped me to control it but it still catches me off gaurd sometimes.
I do keep a bottle of Pamprin around and that does help once I take it. I have been on so many antidepressants and the side effects with some of them were just as devestating. I am not ready to give up on Yaz yet since most of what I have read and heard it has helped a lot of women with my same symptoms. Thank goodness my Dr is taking my PMDD seriously, she is also a woman! And really feels like Yaz will help me, she has said she has other patients with the same symptoms and it has made a tremendous difference for her and her family.
I have never heard of evening primrose but I think I will check into it. I have also read that the St. John's wart can be helpful. I think having people around would that understood and took this seriously would be so helpful but I don't think enough people know and understand how debilitating this condition is.
Please don't give up!

[NickyDonkin]

Your message was the one thing that actuallym brought me a moment of 'serenity", thank you. To read your message not only offered me kindness but also a little bit of hope and set me thinking positive thoughts like going to see my GP and put up a bit of a fight within myself. I havent felt those things in such a long time, I think all the fighting spirit left me when the PMDD took over once and for all. I'll be honest with you, I really believe that this is how I will feel for the rest of my life and the thought of that has been torturing my mind beyond my control. To read your message has got me thinking that perhaps I'm really not the raving looney I think I am. Ive never felt so out of control of my own thoughts, feelings, actions,behaviour and am so ashamed and shocked that I have turned into this person who is totally nothing like me. Its scary and worrying because of the fact i have no control over anything and just feel like my whole life has fallen apart around me buti'm hurting so much I have switched off my own emotions and now just feel numb and in a way not here. This is my defence mechanism when i'm so upset.

Thanks again, even just sending you this message has helped me open up a little bit more and its easier to talk to someone who has experience of the same thing.

Take care
Nicky

[NickyDonkin]

Hi, Could you please tell me what Yaz is, ive seen it mentioned in a few threads people have wrote and am desperate to know what it is and does. Would really appreciate any info you are able to tel me.

Thanks

[butifulsunshine]

Nicky it has helped me, you responding to my post! It is nice to talk to someone who understands what you are going through. I am sure there are a lot of women who suffer from this and don't realize they do since we are expected to be emotional and crazy because we are women. I think a lot of women don't realize what is happening to them. We are one step ahead of them! We know what is going on! Now the really hard part is figuring out the best way to deal with it.
I can so understand what you are saying about becoming a person you never wanted to become. And I don't think it is directly because of the PMDD but because of the things we say and do when we are feeling really out of control, since it isn't who we really are we feel guilty and ashamed. Those feelings are the gateway to allowing all the negative to come spiriling in! It really sucks, half my life is spent either dealing with the symptoms of PMDD or the guilt and shame over the things said and done during the symptoms! I think it would be so helpful to have the people close to me really truly accept and understand that this is so hard to control!! This is the first time I have reached out like this, usually I just want to forget the guilt and shame by not talking about it!
O and about the Yaz. It is a birth control pill but is made for the purpose of controling hormones. All the research I have found on it is very positive. Like I said in my first post I am just getting ready to start my second month. I figure I can't really expect these crazy little F&*%$# to straighten out in a few short weeks since that would make it way to easy so I am going to stick with it for awhile. I think I am going to add the St. John's Wart to the mix too. O and I have noticed, and I know it is really really hard to do! Believe me!! But if I MAKE myself do something for myself during those horrible times it helps ALOT! I don't know what you like to do but for me, getting my hair done or having a pedicure or massage makes a huge difference! And you know we may be like this for the rest of our lives, which really sucks, but it is better to find ways to overcome then to let this overtake you and make you miserable all the time!! Feeling miserable is no way to live!! I HATE it!!

[Ladii]

Hello, I'm new here and I specifically registered to talk about my possible PMDD symptoms. I can relate to this thread whole-heartedly. I also feel like I have this split personality because I'm generally a calm, sweet, caring type person. When I'm "PMSing" I'm the extreme opposite. I'm irritable, angry, depressed and anxious. I feel overwhelmingly guilty when I take it out on my son and because I'm a single parent, it's hard for me to get the break that I need.

I have heard somewhere that women choose to have their ovaries removed in order to alleviate their PMDD symptoms. Having a hysterectomy won't do the trick - it's the ovaries that regulate the hormones we're struggling with. If you choose to have your ovaries removed, you're likely going to have to take hormone supplements. That's all I know. I wish I could just walk in the doctor's office and request it without having to go through the hoopla of trials and meds.

[butifulsunshine]

I have not done any research on having my overies removed, I would think it would not alieveate our problem completely but I might be wrong. If our overies are removed then we would have to take synthedic hormones and who is to say that won't cause a whole set of other problems. I sure would like to find out if other women who have had their overied removed feel like it has helped!
I feel so bad for my kids too! I really try to remember it isnt their fault and will MAKE myself get out and do something when I am feeling really bad. If I am not able to do something for myself I will take the kids to the park or an indoor playspace and let them have fun and wear themselves out!
Like I keep saying I am not ready to give up on Yaz yet! I will keep you posted!

[alaska]

Hi my name is christine and I have severe symptoms of PMDD. I am starting my second month of Yaz and just went through 2 of the worst days I have had in a few months. I truly feel like I am going crazy or maybe have split personalities! My irriatabilty and lack of patience for the people around me during those few days causes me to feel so guilty about it for several more days! My boyfriend has no patience for me and adds to my already overwhelming emotions. I really don't know how long I can go on like this! Does anyone have any suggestions for me?

I am new here, but I just wanted to let you know that I have been suffering the same symptoms for years. It gets really bad those 10-7 days before the period. I feel horrible for how I react to family, friends and even coworkers sometimes, unfortunately at that moment I have no control over it. Once the period arrives I am back to normal. It seems to be worse if I am under a lot of stress or haven't slept or eaten. I have come to the conclusion that when I take too much caffeine and/or salt, symtoms worsen that month.
The only thing that has worked for me ( I refuse to take antideppressants or other products that are not natural) is ESTROVEN PMS.
For me it works like magic, quickly too. I don't understand how but it truly does for me.
I am not a doctor so I suggest that you bring it up to yours and let him know if you decide to try it. I am not in the pill or take any other medication. Its made with natural ingredients but i would let him know any way.
Hope this helps. Good luck!!!

[brilliantinax]

I am new here too!
I feel like I have found a home here! Everyone is going through the same things I am. I am 41...and have been suffering since 18 with this pmdd...and I am realizing now that its been the center of ALL My problems.
I was very ill during my 20's & recovered ( a real battle!) during my 30's...thanks to unbeatable will ( i am told) and God, I am still alive... this is my one mountain. Like many of you I am struggling to overcome it.
I suffer every month...If I am lucky I get about 1 weeks peace (a normal ,calm mindset).
I suffer with mood swings ("dr.jeckll/hyde"), oversensitivity, emotional...critical, crying, crying and more crying! Argumentive...to the point of confrontation( and I am the most unconfrontational person alive!)!
I have been on Zoloft for years...but it wasnt for pmdd...it was for "clinical depression" and I am thinking - misdiagnosed probably was pmdd all along ( I was sucicidal too)
I do wild yam cream..it helps, flax seed oil, vita a,d, e, b's...but I get tired and dont do it perfectly....iI get tired, lazy and discouraged( sigh).


Its sooooooooo bad, that I am going to see a accupunturist tomorrow..wish me luck!
I hope to make some friends here. Comrades!
God Bless all of you ladies, I will keep u updated on my progress!
Sabrina/BrilliantinaX