I talked to my ex boyfriend today. (You know the one) I was telling him my troubles and what's been going on with me. (He asked) The conversation seemed so depressing so I asked him for an upper. (Not a pill. A positive story) He said, "This isn't an upper for me but it might be for you." I asked him what it was and he told me, "Tracy (the woman he cheated on me with) left me over the weekend." I said that I was sorry to hear that and that it didn't make me happy. I told him that I want him to be happy. I then asked why. He said, "She is working two jobs and doesn't have the time." I said, wow... That is total bull *bleep* I said, If someone cares about you they can be working 10 jobs but they will still make time for you. He said, "I totally agree."
Truth be told... I was ecstatic that she left him. Does that make me horrible? I think it does. I do want him to be happy... Just happy alone. It's not fair of me to feel this way but I can't help it. I always knew that what he did with her wouldn't last. I knew it was a fling and someone (he) would get hurt. I wanted to say, "I hope it was worth it." I didn't though. I didn't want to rub it in his face. I called it in the beginning, told him this would happen but it only made him angry. Now he realizes I was right. She got what she wanted and left. Go figure. Honestly, I don't feel bad for him. I don't feel anything but happiness that this happened. I hope he learned a lesson. He gave up a year with me (and according to him, the best girlfriend he ever had) for a one month fling. Pathetic.
That's my rant... Or my vent. I don't know what to call it.
"All the beats and melodies keep realities at bay but what happens when the records done and starts to fade away? Alone within myself again, I try to veil away my pain. The dirty grey surrounding me 'round..... And now I hear no sound."
Naw it doesn't make you horrible i'm sure on one level it doens't make you happy he was dumped. Just on a bigger deeper level it does![]()
You can be horrible and human. But in this case I think you were just human - I think most people would feel the same way.
I would feel the same for a while especially while my own wounds he created are still burning. I think once u feel more healed and happy it will become easier to wish him happiness and truly mean it, in all ways
Scars remind us of where we've been...they don't have to dictate where we're going.
it serves him right, dont fall into the pity sex trap though. be strong and stay "just friends"! you dont want to be his fall back girlfriend.
that's my rant or my vent..i don't know what to call it
just don't call it your next opportunity..you've been hurt enough..be strong and move on..there are many posters here pulling for you..if you need encouragment from us, just ask..we're in your corner..
a smart man learns from his mistakes..a wise man learns from the mistakes of others..
hey yes that is pretty freaky - is it great minds think alike or small minds seldom differ in our cases LOL!!
i'm sure it's the great minds one..BTW, hello "happy ending"..i know our minds have met but rest of us have not ben formally introduced..nice to make your acquaintance..
a smart man learns from his mistakes..a wise man learns from the mistakes of others..
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