hopeless

[mommy2times]

HI. Well to start off ill tell you little about me. I am a 22 year old single mom of two. I had both children via c section. Both pregnancies I gained alot of weight and lost alot of weight afetr the pregnancies. I have terrible stretch marks on my belly, legs, breast and even arms. Before I tell more of how I feel please dont pass judgement ... I am just trying to cope and dealw ith my emotions, thoughts and feelings. I hate my body ... and it can not be put any more simple then that. I cry at least 3 times day. It has put me in a stat of mind I do not like. I cant controle it, i can only hope it gets better. These are my thoughts " i am 22 years old ... a 70 year old woman surley has nicer breast then I do. I have this ugly strechted body that may have been MAY have been beautiful to a man whos children made my body this way .... surely any guy i date wont think this way. WHO would want ME? I want to beable to lay on the couch and let him rub my belly .... instead im in constant fear he will touch my belly and anytime his hand goes near i pull it away. He must wonder why and I cant keep it a secret forever. All I can do is let him go and i will save myself heart ach. Its not fair that he go in thsi relatuionship blinded but i wont ever tell him about it so there is just no pouint and I will be alone forever

I cant kick this thought pattern. I hate my life as a result of this. I can function like i should nor can I think or act as I should. I need help

[CHANDLERS WISH]

I don't think people are going to pass judgement, it's normal to feel down and out when your body changes from what we are used to, more so being so young, your feeling helpless over it all.

But, you are aware that your not alone. Can I suggest you google and try to find a support site on women whom have just had babies so you can hear the same cry and realise this.

Also, we "can" change our body again, by toning..

I am not saying your scares will go, they will fade over time but don't you think that men are used to the knowledge of c sections and scars?

Also, you know that, that is only at the beginning of a relationship, so you stop him from touching your tummy or seeing it, explain why as time goes by you will ease because you both will fall for each other and it won't matter.

There are things "we all" don't like about change with life, our bodies but it is what it is, all we can do is find ways to make that change better..

Our mind is the most powerful thing...

CW

[happy ending]

sweetie you sound depressed, i am sure you are beautiful, it can be very difficult being by yourself with little ones. i hope you are getting out to see people and exercising. ok, i certainly do not have the perfect body, i am overweight, over 45 and got scars, and everything else, but my boyfriend was the other day trying to persuade me to buy a bikini, because he honestly thought i would look hot in it!!! he is not insane or short sighted but looks at me through the eyes of love, he thinks i am gorgeous, and when that happens to you, it will be the same. i promise. take care of yourself.

ps we didnt get the bikini, he was soooo disapointed!