I think I need to see someone but don't know where to start.

[sallyskellington]

So I was chilling on another website I frequent (asmb if anyone knows what that is) and there was just a silly thread about boobs. And after seeing it I just got so angry, depressed, and self loathing I wanna hurt someone. I know this isn't normal, I just don't know where to start. I don't know if I need some specialist, bc therapy has never helped before

[Nats]

Obviously you've started the road to recovery because you acknowledge the thread as being silly...

Young lady, you better stop this nonsense or Ill hunt you down...You are one FINE little ma so quit it...QUIT IT...fo real, I aint playin...Ill be watchin' you...

You are adorable, sexy and just a little mysterious looking with them big doe-like eyes...If anyone tells you diff, and I mean ANYONE, they dont deserve you so dont waste your time...

Get yourself all dolled up and go out dancing...find a new dress...get your nails done...Do your hair and PARTY...They prettier you find yourself, once you start finding yourself that way, the prettier others will find you...

[Nats]

Obviously you've started the road to recovery because you acknowledge the thread as being silly...

Young lady, you better stop this nonsense or Ill hunt you down...You are one FINE little ma so quit it...QUIT IT...fo real, I aint playin...Ill be watchin' you...

You are adorable, sexy and just a little mysterious looking with them big doe-like eyes...If anyone tells you diff, and I mean ANYONE, they dont deserve you so dont waste your time...

Get yourself all dolled up and go out dancing...find a new dress...get your nails done...Do your hair and PARTY...They prettier you find yourself, once you start finding yourself that way, the prettier others will find you...

Not "they prettier" THE prettier...Sorry, I cant spell today...

[sallyskellington]

I don't do so good at that.. I always find something to pick apart.

[WildChild]

I don't know dear. We've talked about it before and even when the men here and your husband have told you that it isn't a big deal to them, you refused to believe them. You don't love yourself, your breasts are just where you focus that negativity. It's sad. Breasts are part of a woman's nourishing nature, while we treat them a sexual feature they are really multipurpose, they are an erogenous zone but their primary purpose is to nurse an infant if you have one.

I don't think everyone should have children, there are a lot of people who have them that really shouldn't. In the US during the 1900s, the bizzare idea that nursing a baby wasn't "normal" or healthy got started. While the idea was promoted by some "experts" the truth is it was more likely pushed by marketers of baby formula. It was further promoted by the long standing practice of the wealthy employing a wet nurse, which made not nursing your own baby a sort of status symbol. This allowed the rise of the idea that the primary function of breasts was to attract men and please them. In a culture that is so conflicted about sex that is a problem in itself.

Sexually your body's primary purpose is to arouse and please you but that starts in the mind and with self love. Realistically, a spouse or a lover's body arouses us only in relation to how we interact. We touch them and enjoy the feel of their skin and their response. That's our sense of touch and our mind. Touching someone we don't care for and don't desire won't arouse us, no matter how they respond.

You don't like your husband, you aren't happy, you cut yourself. You have to do something! You do need help in doing it. Finding the right counselor can be a key but you have to understand they aren't miracle workers, you have to do the work. YOU are the one who is unhappy, ultimately you have to find the solution. They are guides to offer insight and suggestions and tools but it's up to you to use what they provide, if you shut the doors, they can't help much.

Are you willing to put down your walls and accept help? Are you willing to do what it will take to come to love yourself? I don't know you or your family but it sounds like your grew up with "stuff" rather than time and interaction from your parents. You seem to see material goods as representing love. They are a poor substitute because they can be taken away or break down, ultimately they leave you empty. When you have and can give real love and acceptance from within, you are always fullfilled. Life is a journey of learning and growth, something deep inside you knows this.

There is an emptiness inside you, a fear and a lack. No matter what you pour into it you can’t fill the void. Bigger boobs won’t fill it. You know it, you’ve said you won’t do implants because you are scared of scaring. Yet you cut your own breasts and scar them. That right there says it – it isn’t your breasts, it isn’t scars that stop you – it’s something else. Obviously the help you've gotten so far hasn't been what you need. Keep looking. start thinking and get out and do some giving. Not work - giving. Get outside yourself, go help at the soup kitchen or the special olympics or something. Odd as it may sound you may find yourself in becoming more selfless.

[Texinator]

Print out WC's post. Read it. Read it again. Read it some more.

Your breasts are really just a lighting rod for your overall poor body image. Probably of your poor self image overall. You don't love yourself and you need to figure out why that is.

At least you see that there is a problem. That's a huge first step.

[Miya]

I agree completely and could not have said it better WC. Heed WC's advice, dear. Something is wrong in perception and you just haven't found the assistance you need to help you through it yet. It takes work and there's no magic pill to make it better in the morning. Though when you put in that work and get past another hurdle you can feel good that YOU were able to do it and nobody bought it or did it for you.

[sallyskellington]

I was bad again

[Texinator]

What happened?

[sallyskellington]

it just felt to good to hurt them. *cut my boobs*