Feeling Inside

[LittleGinger]

I have lots of threads here on masterbation. I have done so myself, but I have never been comfortable to feel myself on the inside. Am I weird in that way, or are there other women out there that are the same way? For those that have, were you just always comfortable with it or did you have to get over the weirdness / dirtiness thoughts?

[C]

When I was a little girl I was always taught never to touch myself....That was dirty, so I didn't...Yet that childhood curiosity stayed and as I grew, like all children I did. I really can't remember how old I was before I really knew what masturbating was, but I can recall when my Mother came in to tuck us in bed to get my fingers out of that area under the covers as I am sure she had "eagle eyes".

With those thoughts in my past, I hardly ever masturbated in all my married life until about three years ago. That was when I got my first vibrator. Imagine that...That far out of it that I did not know about vibrators....BUT I have made up for it....Tried out about ten of them but Eric is my favorite. He and I are having a love affair but only when my husband is sleeping.

Yes, like you I thought it was dirty doing this. I was taught this by a Mother and Mother's never lie. As I aged I had to realize that Mother's do not know and reprogram myself. Actually, she programed me very badly on many ways in life. Men have dirty things between their legs...Don't ever suck them. They horrible bodies are only tolerated, so I could not understand it when I loved all the things that she hated.

This is turning into a blog so I will shorten it quick...Now I am finding that my husband has also been programed. He hates my using a vibrator and I beg him to use one on me. It would be so sexual but he resists and I am convinced that he is jealous of a man made machine. So he just must have dirty thoughts about vibrators.

Now I am more than comfortable with the vibrator masturbating..It isn't dirty, it is good for you. It makes you a very sexual woman. The more you do it the more you are receptive to a man...Oh, like everything you don't want to overload the system but once a day if you need it is terrific and it feels so wonderful so honey, if it is dirty, than I am dirty and I am sure not dirty.....So enjoy life...Just one of the most wonderful inventions in the world....TC, C

[CHANDLERS WISH]

I don't think anyone's parents taught us about sex, i slightly remember at school, man meets girl. In fact, mine didn't even tell me about menstration! My mother walked around naked, but i only saw dad accidently once. So, how are you mean't to "feel" about that side of you, of course initially "dirty". You see magazines i am sure, that are suggestive and it feels like porn. Alas, as you get older you realise that what you are doing is exploring, finding out what "ticks" and what doesn't which is important in a relationship that's serious as you both will know "where to go" and where not to. And, for you, it's also a release, fantastic for stress, tension... And, you should smile at the end. I don't use vibrators, not saying i shouldn't. Funny, when i was younger i discovered a "brush", but it was so so. And, touching myself to try to climax, took forever. Now, with a little imagination, feelings, lust, sensuality, visualisation, i have learnt to c... 9 times in one session and tears roll down my eyes. If you want to tell me that that's not worth experiencing, and is not sexy, sensual and beautiful and that's dirty? I wouldn't believe you. It's satisfying, exciting to watch that side of me grow and be deeply connected to myself and of course, more open to my man when it's his turn.lol. So, remember, it's what was breed within us, go with feeling instead of what you were taught and see how it manifests and watch yourself grow. Enjoy....

[rebellee47]

Chandlers Wish. Do you have any advice for me and my post? I have read thru most of the post and notice you answer a lot so I thought you might have some advice for me . If not that is Ok was just hoping to get some input from here....Lee

[CHANDLERS WISH]

It is refreshing that you obviously want to work out how to make your wife happy. And, it seems she does to.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

Chandlers Wish. Do you have any advice for me and my post? I have read thru most of the post and notice you answer a lot so I thought you might have some advice for me . If not that is Ok was just hoping to get some input from here....Lee

I think i can add a bit more though so check your thread. Note you haven't been around though to read any replies for a while, so hope everything is ok.

[ArmyWife]

I've done a lot of things with masterbation and I was always curious. So it didn't really bother me. I was always kind of in awe about it. I thought people might think I was weird if they knew exactly what I did with myself, but because I was doing so in privacy, why should it matter? Exploration is a wonderful thing!

[krazymonkey3589]

I agree with you LittleGinger. I have "explored myself" before, but in a way, i dont like feeling inside of me.

[marycate]

Yep I'm with Ginger too. when I do "explore myself" I sort of feel nothing a bit like stroking my own hand. But boy when my husband rolls me on my tummy and fingers me its almost instant G spot pleasure.
C, your my sort of girl, yes it is good for you, it keeps you healthy!

[WildChild]

I don't get all that into toys, don't do much for me but give me the real thing and OH MY! The numbers are that a significant percentage of women just don't get off on vaginal stimulation. I do but not on my own. Experiment, try things, see what works for you. I always thought I couldn't cum with a condom but learned that I can - very nicely in fact. For myself though it's just a whole heck of a lot better with a man I'm into. That may be some of the emotional/mental side of sex, but as along as it works on the level of amazing, I'm not messing with it.

There isn't anything about sex or bodies I would consider dirty.