Hello everyone! I"m new to this site, and I come for some incouragement. I"M 31 and as of last week, I hit 300lbs. I cant understand how this has happened. Well, I guess I could understand, in the course of one year (2007) I lost my grandmother, godfather, and my father was hurt at work and he passed away a week before Christmas. I lost my job, and now Ive been a stay at home wife. I"m in a very good marraige, and have a beautiful home, but I just cant seem to feel happy latley, and the weight has packed on. I"m here tonight to say, I"m wiping the slate clean. I"m starting over. What has happened in my past year is over, and although I"m morning still, I need to start to get my life together. I feel and look terrible. Everyday is the beginning of my new life, and every night, I go ok, tomorrow is the day. This has gone on far too long. I"M here to say, I need help. I am looking for a friend on here. Someone that is going through the same battle with their weight as I am. I just need someone who understands how hard it is. I always think to myself, If I was a drinker, I just cant be around bars and liquor stores, if I was a drug addict, I cant be near drugs, but being addidcted to food? God, Its everywhere, and you need it to live. UGH! I'm so lost. I keep waiting for this light to go on in my head and that be my shining moment where I just get on the treadmill and never get off, but it just not happening. If someone out there gets this, I would be so happy to hear from you. Lets not do this alone. I"m a great listener, and would love to meet someone new. Even if its via the internet. I hope to hear from someone soon. Thanks so much!

Jill

Hi JerseyJill,

I just found this website today and your post made me join. First let me say, I am so sorry for your losses. Ater all that and you still manage to have a great attitude, so score 1 for you. Second, I totally get this! I have battled ( and am still battling) my weight too. I am kinda short, only 5'3" and as of Sunday, 198 lbs. My doctor called me mildy obese, I was mortified. My closet goes from size 10 - size 18!!! Let me just say - DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF! I have joined Weight Watchers at least 5 times,( by the way, it works every time) I have a treadmill, yoga books, tapes, DVD's, Hula dance videos, resistance bands, punching bag - you name it, I've done it. Sadly, its really hard to KEEP doing it, every day. I get in a groove and then I feel good and go back to eating what I want. Next thing I know, I'm dragging out my fat pants! Not to mention a husband who eats whatever he wants at any time of day and still looks great. That right there just plain bugs me! At 10 o'clock at night, when he's drinking pepsi and eating cheetos and watching tv, I want to join in! Alas, I have learned, I cannot.

So, I am here for you and lets do this together. I am always hiring new friends, when can you start?...

Hey Zoolady,

Thanks so much for your positive post! I"m in the same boat as you when it comes to husbands, mine eats anything and everything and is still a size 34 waist. UGH! I would love to team up with you. Where do we start? When do we start? LOL I"M ready to jump on board. You can e-mail me anytime at Jwunder27aol.com or through here. This made my night. Talk to you soon!

Good for both of you and welcome to WH.

I always love inspiring stories.

You know the hardest thing to do is to "accept" and "believe" ....

You both have done that, saying "damd it" I am going to do this ...

But we all need someone, people, encouragement , can do and guess what?

YOU CAN.

You can do anything you want to do.. But, you have to believe, you have to put your mind into action and then do.

So, you've started. You have a journey to go through, but you need to see the end result.

At the moment you see you NOW. That's not how it is. What do you WANT to look like?

What do you WANT to feel like.

How much you want to laugh, jump up and down, climb a tree, have sex until the cows come home, you on top....Look at photos and say, mmm, I will look like that in 12 months, no bugger it make it 9....

You need to visualise.

Take a picture out of a magazine, of a size 12 - 14 woman who looks great, cut her out and post her on your bathroom mirror, look at her every day , every single day and KNOW that soon, you will look like her. You are her, you were her, damd you are going to be her.

Food?

Sure, it's everywhere, depression makes us do it. I have put on weight and I am not happy, I like to feel free, naked and look good, lol... Don't we all?

I will do this with you. I will only be around for a while with you, as I am not way overweight but hey, 3 is better than 2.

Then I'll just be here to encourage.

So, step one go get that photo, when done, and pasted on that mirror come back for the next steps.

What do you have to lose?

WEIGHT - on body and shoulders.

CW

Visualization and a "skinny me" photo on the mirror - check!
Hey CW, thanks for joining us.
Step 1 - Yesterday, I rejoined Weight Watchers.
I have been on the program plenty of times before and I know it works. It costs money so whenever my membership expired, I figured I did loose weight so I would just follow the plan at home. Yeah, nice try. There is something about the accountability of tracking your daily food intake and weighing yourself once a week and seeing that progress chart WHILE you know you are paying for it that makes a difference. After joining and recalculating the foods and portion sizes I have been eating lately, I was totally miscounting and no wonder I am stuck. That bagel is way more points than I thought.
Step 2 - Learning how to cook healthier.
As I mentioned, my husband is an eating machine. I just don't get it. He can help himself to anything and nothing happens to him. No such luck for me! So, that said, he is on his own. I told him, I am doing this for me, if he wants to be part of it, great, otherwise, eat your Mcdonalds away from home. I have lots of cooking magazines and the Weight Watchers site has tons of recipes. My goal is to try 1 0r 2 new recipes a week. This should shake up some old habits and maybe I will end up liking new things. I am kinda picky and not very adventurous about food.
Step 3 - ramping up my exercise routine.
As I grew up, I was very active. I've never been really fat, just "solid" or "thick". Thank God for that early beginning because it has helped me as an adult. I've always done something, treadmill, yoga or punching bag, but I realize now, maybe its not enough. SO, a few weeks ago, I spent the money on this new workout DVD program called "10 minute trainer". It is tough. I sweat my butt off in those 10 minutes but I feel really good when I'm done.

Now, I will follow my Weight Watchers and do AT LEAST my 10 minute trainer DVD (if not more) every day and lets see what happens by Sunday, October 11. I weigh myself on Sundays, but I'm gonna skip this Sunday since I only joined Weight Watchers yesterday.

Jersey Jill: your turn....

I read the messages and I'm inspired! Im going to live healthy.. From this point on, I"m clearing my head of all negative thoughts and I"m going to live from this day forward a healthy person. Every decision I make I will stop and think is this a positive or a negative? I will try and look to food as nurshment and not as a crutch. I will get off the couch and start moving. The photo on the bathroom mirror is an awesome idea, and she will be going up today! My father was a very healthy man, he loved working out, and loved his treadmill. He was hurt at work, had surgery, and didnt know, but developed a bloodclot, that broke off, went to his brain, and caused a stroke. He was unable to speak, to walk, swallow,see, it was terrible. I dont usually talk about it, but I feel if I"m on my healthy kick, lets get this out. After months of rehab, he was able to get home but still wasnt good. I remember him looking at his treadmill (he loved to run) and crying that he couldnt get on it. The depression hit him so hard, here was this hard working, strong man who took care of everyone and now he's in a wheelchair. Well, he ended up taking his own life. He died two weeks before Christmas and on my husbands birthday no less. Ok, so fast forward, I took his treadmill. This really nice, totally expensive state of the art treadmill and it sits in my office. UGH! He wants me to use it. I think he would be so upset if he saw what I"m becoming. Ok, so I"M sorry if I got everyone down, but I"m doing this right this time. I"m getting on that friggen thing! I"m going to use it everyday! I"m going to stop with the junk food, stop with the eating late at night (oh god) and I"m going to be healthy. To better things to come!!!! I"M making 09 my year. Besides, I want a baby, and Im not going to be a fat mother. Gotta go, I just added new songs on my ipod and am gonna listen to them while I'm walking! talk to you soon!
JIll

Get out there and make your pops proud Jill!