sweetpea85

I have had a little "belly pouch" for as long as I can remember. I've gained and lost and gained and lost many times. I was pretty thin for the first time in a long time when I got married (I was about a size 8).
Then I was on birth control and that made me gain weight so I went up to about a 10 - 12. I think being married also contributed in a sense...I know my husband finds me desirable (he thinks I'm crazy for thinking I've gained weight) so I got lazy.

I went off birth control and started a diet for digestive issues. I lost weight again (this was last summer). The diet seemed to "cure" my digestive issues, so I decided to not follow it so strictly...I still eat healthy (most of the time), but since I went off the diet I've gained again.

This time is a bit different, though. Almost all of the weight gain is on my belly area. Like I said, I've always had a pouch there, but this is more than that. I honestly look 2-3 months pregnant. I don't know why this is happening. I work at a school, so I'm constantly tempted by sweets (teachers loooove sweets).
I'm determined to lose weight again. I'm saying no to sweets and things I know I shouldn't eat. I wasn't gorging myself on cake or anything...I'd have sweets here-and-there and small portions, but I knew I shouldn't be doing it.

Part of me is concerned there may be a health condition causing my belly to get bigger. But I've decided to go back on my previous diet and see what happens. I know I should work out more, too, so I plan on doing that.

I've just been struggling with some feelings of depression...I see women around me losing weight and I'm so happy for them, but I also feel really crappy about myself. I'm trying to turn those feelings into positive motivation, though.