IM NEW- This is my LAST RESORT!!

**Chanage.A.S.A.P** · 02-09-2010 07:01 PM

Im 16, weigh 174 pnds and have already spent over 3 000 dollars in gym memberships, weight loss clinics, pills, and teas, with hope to reach my ideal weight of 125 pnds!

My first huge step was in teh summer of grade 8 when my mom took me to the L.A. Weight loss Clinic but three months in- it went bankrupt. So the following 5 PRE-PAID MONTHS WERE GONE AND I HAD LOST 600 DOLLAS. I did learn sommeee tips on portions and how much of each protein, veggie, fruit i should eat daily...but i only lost 3 pounds FROM A PROFFESIONAL CLINIC!! that was my biggessttt discouragement and a harsh reminder of my moms money being thrown away

wich really hurts.

After recovering from my embaring failure, i had another attempt. This time i signed up to Goodlife Fitness with my dad in Christmas of 0'9. I began the gym training with ambition...then i would stop for a week: because i'd be busy or didn't have a ride to get there...then if i didnt go for a few consecutive weeks i'd try to extend it to a month and use excuses of being busy , too tired, etc...then never ended up returning to it because i felt intimidated that the people who worked there , would see me 2-10 punds heavier than the last tiem i worked out there- which would obviously showsim not commited- and juts a failure. (on top of that the membership fee's were still being payed!!!! - thats a KILLER!! and just discourages me more from ever going/buying gym memberships ever again) - so this time the loss came from my fathers pocket

Now i feel that i have tried all the possible 'right' ways to lose weight by excersizing/and attempting healthy eating - but failed at both, shamefully. SO now i feel helpless, stuck in this body, and mind-set and dont think i'll ever reach my goal

Im starting to get interested in becoming more 'physical' with boys, but im too embarrased and ashamed of my body, and dont believe that anyone would want me....and i feel/see it too- some guys may flirt with me...but most see just a friend or kind of sad and pitiful.

HOWEVER I've seen two teens (girl and boy) that weighed even more than mee and lost over 50 pounds in just 4-5 months!! which baffles me , because i feel that if they can do it so should i ! but i still seem to fall into my trap of eating sweets, salty foods,CARBS, CHOCOLATE, not excersing, etc. After every meal i eat, i am disgusted with myself - espacially because i hide food/snacks/candy in my room and binge on themmmm :S its horrible and i cant seem to control it...except after i feel the guilt (this happend today) thats why i've had enough and am trying to get support and oppinions from this forum!

Hope someone can help me/or undertsands me, and give me advice!!!

**sourpuss** · 02-09-2010 09:10 PM

Originally Posted by Chanage.A.S.A.P

I began the gym training with ambition...then i would stop for a week: because i'd be busy or didn't have a ride to get there...then if i didnt go for a few consecutive weeks i'd try to extend it to a month and use excuses of being busy

but i still seem to fall into my trap of eating sweets, salty foods,CARBS, CHOCOLATE, not excersing, etc. After every meal i eat, i am disgusted with myself - espacially because i hide food/snacks/candy in my room and binge on themmmm :S its horrible and i cant seem to control it...except after i feel the guilt (this happend today) thats why i've had enough and am trying to get support and oppinions from this forum!

I think you have your answer right there.

You're parents are obviously willing to help. So talk to them about not allowing you to hide sweets and to make it a priority to get to the gym at least 5 days a week. If there isn't any junk food around to eat, if your meals are healthy and portions small and if you have to go to the gym, then you can't fail.

It will be slow. 1-2 pounds a week is realistic if you're really working at it. So keep that in mind. But you have to keep your goal priority and stay motivated. Really, it's up to you and you're going to have to put the work in, but it will be worth it to live a healthy life.

**rachwms** · 02-10-2010 11:16 AM

yeah it sounds like lack of will power and willing to make serious changes that are not dropped for something more important. I have this trouble all the time. Sometimes writing down on paper WHY you want to loose the weight helps. This is NOT EASY!