I just found out that I weigh more than my fiance and he's 190#.... What is wrong with me? Why can't I lose weight? I gave up fast food, I walk everyday and I don't drink or smoke....I just don't get it, I am on the edge of my sanity...Iv'e been overweight for as long as I can remember and no matter what I did (Slimfast, Curves, strenuous exercise) nothing worked, or for very long. Back before I met my fiance I was down to 180# but I looked good. I am 5'7 and got REALLY wide shoulders and a big bust....so my shape does not resemble Jaba the Hutt or a pear but more like Chyna from WWF (but a fat version of course). I got BIG boobs (which I hate), thick thighs, but not overly fatty, big arms (mostly fat) and a mid-section tire.

I have seen a doctor about my weight, but he said I just need to eat less and exercise...DUH!!! But lately I Am so stressed and becoming depressed...this does not help my motivation to lose weight at all...Some mornings I wish I could curl in a ball in my bed and stay there all day...but I got to work...

I'm not sure if he knows yet that I weigh more than him (but I'm pretty sure he can figure out that I am tub of lard), but this is so embarrassing I want to run away and hide until I get back into shape...

Dieting is hard, and you're hearing it from someone that has pretty much done it all as well. The only thing that worked for me and i lost about 15lbs was using hydroxycut and slim-fast but that was no way to live so i stopped.

I know how stressed you are and your just tired of it, but look at what you have. A fiance that im sure loves you or else wouldn't be with you and besides the weight you have everything else going for you which is more than a lot of people can say.

In short, try baby steps don't go for a drastic change. For instance check how many calories you should eat a day and try sticking with it. If it helps crop the body you want to look like and put picture on it. It will give you motivation and think you can look that good for your significant other. Nothing is impossible. You do however need to have the will and integrity to stick with a diet. It's hard I know and sometimes you just wanna say f*** it but you can't if you really want it.

Exercising is a must, so start power walking, try going to a gym if not light running so you can get some intense cardio in. Make up your time that you will stick with it for about 2 months which is when you get results and hopefully it would have turned into a lifestyle change. But don't give up and don't bash yourself, it won't do you any good.
Remember: Decide.Commit.Succeed <3