[katzintheclouds]

Well, his mother just kind of ignored it. If he got mad, she just walked away, avoided it. Never told him to calm down, just walks away and says she doesn't want to be a part of it. She see's me & him fight, or hears him yell at me, and just says she doesn't want to be around our fighting. Which then makes me feel bad

But today I find myself even more confused. I let things just sit around the house that he leaves everywhere, because I feel like the maid sometimes. I came home today after being gone at a family get together, and I think he must have been sitting here stewing & thinking about me & him, I'm pretty sure he feels something going on & he's sad about it. He had put things away & cleaned up the messes he's left. That just makes it worse. I hate flip flopping like this...on my way home today, I wanted to cry thinking about how conflicted I am. About how I feel like there's just no way to save this, but there's no way to leave it either. It's horrible

But my degree is in IDIS, which is interdisciplinary with psychology & history. THe focus has always been on gender studies/social sciences. I'm applying for jobs on campus where I am graduating from in their academic affairs offices, as well as with other various places for human resource jobs & program management.