How old are you, out of curiosity?
When we are strong, independent and solid within ourselves, we tend not to make these poor choices.
It's when we're in a position of weakness that we accept these sub-par relationships.
It's kind of like being very hungry and going to a restaurant that's quite busy with only 1 table available,and it's the one next to the bathroom. So you take the table, because you're starving, and pretend not to mind the sounds of flushing toilets, smell of other people's waste, and constant traffic past your table...you were too hungry to wait for something more pleasant.
We're in a vulnerable position when we're really "hungry" and we'll accept whatever we can get.
When we are complete, when we're whole and fulfilled women, when our lives are full already, we won't just take any crappy "table" that's offered. We'll wait the extra hour for that seat with the ocean view, relax and enjoy a nice meal. This is an analogy of course, and I hope you get what I'm driving at. There's a desperation that comes when we aren't fulfilling our own needs.
It seems like I've made every dating mistake possible, aside from accepting abuse in any way. It's hard to find someone that is a balance for us, and if we do, there's a good chance there may be other peripheral issues to cause the relationship to fail. There are so many variables and we're human, after all. Everything is math and chemistry!

The bottom line is, we have to do the work within ourselves, before we can build a solid foundation and healthy relationship that will bring fulfillment to us, and we can add something to that partner's life too. Our goal should not only be to have our needs met, but to contribute to their life in a meaningful way as well.
So, I'd encourage you to explore that. What is it really driving you to date, and what is it that you really want? It has to be more than "a baby". What is it that you need in a partner? What is it that you would not tolerate? How is it that you feel most loved and validated?
Also, really begin considering what kind of partner you are. What is it that you bring to the table in a relationship? What are your strengths? How do you love? What will you contribute mentally, emotionally and otherwise?
You can be honest. This is just you having a good discussion with yourself, or writing it down.
These things are important when you're "interviewing" potential partners. It will guide you toward the person that will meet your needs, and give you an idea whether or not YOU are a good match for them. It's important that you realize that YOU must meet their needs as well. If they are happy, they'll be much more inclined to be a giving partner and your relationship will connect on that deeper level.
Assess these characteristics and possibilities before you allow yourself to be drawn in by physical attraction, or other more superficial attributes. You'll also be able to recognize when a partner needs something that you are unable or unwilling to give.
Does this make sense, or just overwhelming?

It takes time and can be a bit much, but it helps to move in this direction.
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