So this Nov. 12 is the third year of dating on/off with Mark. The first year I was with him he impregnated a girl who's lovehandles were so large it looked like the top of a muffin over her tight pants. I came to his apartment and found a note telling me he was running away with her. she ended up miscarrying so he showed up four 1/2 months later. I took him back. We broke up again and he started dating another girl. I stole him from her, beginning a two year battle between me and her. Recently I woke up, quit my job and packed my bags. Two days later I was hundreds of miles away.
I went home and met with him. Yet I kept my distance. And finally he grabbed me and threw me on the couch and tried kissing me etc. I didn't want to so I shoved him off and he hit his head on the side table. We started yelling and fighting- the cops showed up on a domestic violence complaint so Mark went to jail (warrants). JAIL. Last time we were finally steady- both had good jobs, laid off the coke and were getting a nice apartment. He went to jail and right before he was out I got incarcerated. I sent him a few messages thru inmate express and everything was okay but when I got out he was living with her again.
Now I know he's an . However, when he touches me I feel something. I blush every time he looks at me. He's the only one I've ever loved. And he NEVER uses that word...except for the first time in three years he did. I cannot explain what it was like trying to act normal when my entire body was buzzing. My question is, should I stay or should I go? Because despite all that terrible stuff I truly love this man but I'm just not sure what to do.
I went home and met with him. Yet I kept my distance. And finally he grabbed me and threw me on the couch and tried kissing me etc. I didn't want to so I shoved him off and he hit his head on the side table. We started yelling and fighting- the cops showed up on a domestic violence complaint so Mark went to jail (warrants). JAIL. Last time we were finally steady- both had good jobs, laid off the coke and were getting a nice apartment. He went to jail and right before he was out I got incarcerated. I sent him a few messages thru inmate express and everything was okay but when I got out he was living with her again.
Now I know he's an . However, when he touches me I feel something. I blush every time he looks at me. He's the only one I've ever loved. And he NEVER uses that word...except for the first time in three years he did. I cannot explain what it was like trying to act normal when my entire body was buzzing. My question is, should I stay or should I go? Because despite all that terrible stuff I truly love this man but I'm just not sure what to do.
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