Okay, so I am involved right now with three different guys. How I have managed this one, I have no idea.
The good thing here is that none of them know each other, although they do know ABOUT one another. The problem is, I don't know who I want to be with. If I could have it my way, I'd be with all three! That's bad, isn't it?
First off, there's Eric. I work with him, and for the last two months, I have been seeing him the most. We have sex and spend a lot of time together, but I know I am not feeling him emotionally. When I see him, I look at his face, his body, his looks. He has a good personality, but it's not my magnet. He kind of has this "thuggish" type of output, and I've never really been big on that. Nothing wrong with it seeing as how he's not into gangs and stuff like that, but just not my type.
Then, there's Bobby. He's my most recent ex-boyfriend, and we've been broke up for about a year and six months. We still see each other occasionally (about once or twice a month) and still have sex. I love Bobby so much. His personality IS my magnet. He's funny, creative, outgoing, sensitive, honest. Just here recently I texted him letting him know that if he or I were to find a partner, that it would make me incredibly sad because I'm not ready to give him up yet. I don't ever want Bobby out of my life. We have our connection and just because I'm with someone doesn't mean I feel like letting go of what Bobby and I have. Bobby thinks we are good for each other, and loves and cares about me just as much. We are open enough to tell each other this. He's always watching out for me and always wants me protected, and I like that. He told me just the other day that he couldn't quit thinking about me, and that he misses me so much. He wishes we were on the same page, and is afraid that I can't commit to just him. But I know if he gave me that chance, I could.
And then, there's Chris, who is also another ex of mine. I have known him the longest, for about five years now. I met him when I was seventeen, and we dated for almost a year. For the last year and a half, Chris has been in prison, and I have been the only friend who has really stayed by his side throughout the whole ordeal. I used to go visit him three days a week, spend money on our phone calls, put money on his books, write letters to him back and forth. Now he is out, and I know he is going to be a big part of my life. We spent the night together last night, and I really don't know what is going to happen at this point. I know I don't want to be with him, but again, I don't want the attachment we have to be gone.
My main problem lies with Bobby and Chris, I feel incredibly close to both of them. Eric, I'm just afraid to hurt.
What do I do?
The good thing here is that none of them know each other, although they do know ABOUT one another. The problem is, I don't know who I want to be with. If I could have it my way, I'd be with all three! That's bad, isn't it?
First off, there's Eric. I work with him, and for the last two months, I have been seeing him the most. We have sex and spend a lot of time together, but I know I am not feeling him emotionally. When I see him, I look at his face, his body, his looks. He has a good personality, but it's not my magnet. He kind of has this "thuggish" type of output, and I've never really been big on that. Nothing wrong with it seeing as how he's not into gangs and stuff like that, but just not my type.
Then, there's Bobby. He's my most recent ex-boyfriend, and we've been broke up for about a year and six months. We still see each other occasionally (about once or twice a month) and still have sex. I love Bobby so much. His personality IS my magnet. He's funny, creative, outgoing, sensitive, honest. Just here recently I texted him letting him know that if he or I were to find a partner, that it would make me incredibly sad because I'm not ready to give him up yet. I don't ever want Bobby out of my life. We have our connection and just because I'm with someone doesn't mean I feel like letting go of what Bobby and I have. Bobby thinks we are good for each other, and loves and cares about me just as much. We are open enough to tell each other this. He's always watching out for me and always wants me protected, and I like that. He told me just the other day that he couldn't quit thinking about me, and that he misses me so much. He wishes we were on the same page, and is afraid that I can't commit to just him. But I know if he gave me that chance, I could.
And then, there's Chris, who is also another ex of mine. I have known him the longest, for about five years now. I met him when I was seventeen, and we dated for almost a year. For the last year and a half, Chris has been in prison, and I have been the only friend who has really stayed by his side throughout the whole ordeal. I used to go visit him three days a week, spend money on our phone calls, put money on his books, write letters to him back and forth. Now he is out, and I know he is going to be a big part of my life. We spent the night together last night, and I really don't know what is going to happen at this point. I know I don't want to be with him, but again, I don't want the attachment we have to be gone.
My main problem lies with Bobby and Chris, I feel incredibly close to both of them. Eric, I'm just afraid to hurt.
What do I do?
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