[sweet_peaa]

After 5 years and having a baby who's 2 and living together we've never broke up! He has a problem with meth which is drug that he can't get off of he accuses me of ceathing using drugs because I did even try it with him and I regretted it ever since!! I didn't like who I was we even moved with his parents who got him started on that drug... It was my rockbottom living there I found out his step dad raped him and once that secret came out the step dad kicked us out to the streets with 80 dollars in our pocket!!! It was horrible.... We didn't talk to them since and luckly my grandma took us back...

Now I find out he using again and talking to both his parents again!!!! I'm so heart broken he took off with my car n money and I actually had the nerve to finally call the cops! And guess where he was?! At his parents!!!!!

The copsngot me my keys but not my belongings cconsidering the step dad was the one who came out to speak for him not my baby daddy...

Never have I been so heart broken in my life!! I was the only one there for him after everything!!! Even the molestation secret I still stood with him!!! I'm destroyed that the drug was more important to him then me and our daughter!!

I'm only more hurting cuz I'm nervous he's going to try to come back to me because I've always taken him back!!! But i have his stuff still in the shed and I'm nervous not knowing if he still going to try to come back to meeee... And I know I need the will power to go on with my decision and make him leave !!! Even if he has to live with his molester!!! They give him drugs And that's the life he wants over me and his daughter.... I'm dying.... It hurts... To know I love him so much but we're just not enoughhh... :'(

[jns]

Aww sweet_peaa, so sorry to hear of this turn. Meth is a nasty drug. It turns users paranoid and in some cases, violent. It will turn a good person bad and make a bad person worse. I saw this when I lived in Hollywood about 3 decades ago. I stayed away from it and the people who decided to use it.

You are going down the right road by separating from him. Don't let him have influence over the baby until he cleans up. If he finally decides to clean up, it will be your decision to get back together if he will stay that way. Good luck. Don't bring so much drama in your grandmother's life that she has to decide against you.

[sweet_peaa]

It just so hard i love him and if he never used drugs I'd still be with him but i know I have no choice anymore but to not care what he does or where he lives but about my daughter but its hard I never felt so alone lost and confused

[Something_Awesome]

I honestly wish I could help. I can actually feel your pain in the last paragraph of your original post. Saying that he is choosing the drugs over you and your daughter and how you guys "are not enough" is very heavy stuff. I am sorry you're going through such turmoil

[sweet_peaa]

I appreciate ur post I can't believe that I've been his only rock !! Not even his parents and always on his side!!! Even knowing what he's been thru it feels like a stab in the heart !.what he did its ridiculous!.. the more sad part is that I love him!.. and I know that he's sick!! and I can't help him!...