[KnottyLockz]

my boyfriend watches porn on his cellphone during sex..we have been together for a year but have known each other since i was 18 years old i am currently 28 years old and he is 36 years old. At first i didn't really care cause he was still showing me attention while watching it but now he watches it everyday and everytime we have sex and when i look at him his eyes barely leave the screen of his cellphone and no im not watching it with him he has the phone turned his way only he can see the screen i don't even touch his phone he doesn't like me to and besides im afraid of what i might find other than just porn. I just need more advice cause im in love with this man but my feelings are hurt everyday just from small things he does and im pretty sure my feelings don't matter to him but i do know he loves me.(not sure how much)but i know he does please what's your opinion what would you do if you were in my shoes.

[atskitty2]

How do you know he loves you?

Tell me some of the good things about this relationship. What makes you stay?
It takes much more than "love" to be happy and to make a relationship work.

[KnottyLockz]

Honestly over the course of the year we have been together he has moments where he makes feel special and makes me smile and im really in love with him,i know watching porn on his phone during sex is disrespectful and has been making me feel unwanted but i cant dind a way to explain to him how i feel im just afraid....of losing him and being alone again...i just dont know what to do any more im lost mentally ive just stopped listening to my emotions and feelings and block out stuff just fooling myself...smh i sound like a sad lonely woman.....

[atskitty2]

So you stay because you're afraid of being alone again. What about being alone is tough for you?

You have been together just a year, and you're this unhappy? You say that your feelings don't matter to him. None of this seems healthy, happy or hopeful. He's disrespectful outside the bedroom too, it seems to me.

After just a year, to have this many serious issues, I'd walk away Hon. Really take a good look at yourself, what you want and need, what you deserve in a man, and go find it. Love yourself enough to be happy. Leave him, take a good long time to yourself for healing, and get some counseling to understand why you ever thought this was acceptable in a partner, and learn to be good all on your own. And not until then, start dating again.

When we are afraid to be alone, we'll settle for just about anything that gives us attention. You need to overcome this fear and learn to stand confidently on your own 2 feet.

[WaveRider]

Hi Knotty Lockz,

Watching porn amounts to nothing. His not allowing you to see what he's watching could amount to something.

My ex-g/f and I would watch porn occasionally before sex. Watching porn turns her on. She has a thing for black dudes, so I'd try to find porn with black male actors. It revealed to me a part of her personality. But I she has told me many times that she likes black man. She has a fantasy for studly black dudes who have HUGE packages. That's my point: if you can find out what kind of porn he's watching, it might reveal a part of his personality that he wants to conceal from you.