I dont mean to make excuses for him but the breaking and being angry thing was over a while ago and he is really making efforts and has not even yelled at me since, despite the many disagreements we have had over the last few weeks about finances. Since we have talked about our financial difficulties he has become more warm and loving and invites intimacy.
And I dont want a rich guy. I dont want someone with tons of money who will bribe me with moeny instead of attention, i have had that and I dont want it.
Despite my husbands many faults he has some good qualities that i like in him and really want to work it out.
I know you think i should walk and i am in denial, you're right. Sometimes i do too but honestly it has not reached that point yet and i really do think we are improving.
We talked yesterday and i saw some bills and boy oh boy we have been spending alot of money. I am mad at him for not sharing with me and telling me when things were that bad, and thinking he could take care of everything himself.
Sometimes i think that the money problem is what was really occupying his mind away from me and romancing me like he did when we met.\
i have looked into becoming an actuary ( I have a math Degree) or doing finacial management which i think will be fun or i might go back to school.
I plan to have my own career and stand on his side. It will take me a few months to establish myself and help him out financially a little bit. Hopefully by then things will be much better.
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