[Passion]

After xmas he called me and left me a message to see what I was doing and to see if i wanted to have coffee with him. he came to the house and waited for me but I never came home I had previously left a bag of his clothes by the door and he took them that is the way i know that he came to the house so i called his mom to see if she had taken it but she told me that he had. So I did not return his calls. Yesterday he called me and asked me if it was a good day for him to pack his stuff, so he came, we argued about how he felt that I was not there for him the way he wanted me to be there but then he told me that he knew I was there for him but to him it was not enough. He told me he was on his own now and he was struggling but he had to do it for himself. He told me that he missed me, and he thought about me in New years and he asked me if I had spent it with family I said no then he asked me if i had spent it with a certain friend, i said no then he asked me did you spend it with someone I know i said no, then he said well i guess its none of my business. He said he spent it with his older brother, his younger brother, and his mother and he did not celebrate xmas well i guess that makes me feel better that he did not spend it with her. I told him that if he had left me without jumping to someone elses heart it would probably be hurt less. I told him you jumped from me to her heart. he told me that is their problem not mine. He packed some of his stuff but was not able to finish as he started crying telling me he was sorry that he hurted me and that he did not do things right but he needed to leave this relationship and he had wanted to for so long. I gave him a picture of our wedding, he looked at it and he came to hug me. He said I am sorry. But I told him don't be, I will make it through just like you will.

[happy ending]

sounds like he is having a real pity party at your expense. he got what he thought he wanted and if he doesnt like it - well tough. also sometimes men say things you want to hear, he lied to you before and probably will again. i hope he is not keeping you in reserve. Take care!

[Passion]

No he is not keeping me in reserve, today he came to pick up the rest of his stuff. He told me that he needed to detach from our relationship as I did, He seemed upset when he thought that I was ripping our pictures. I told him I wasn't but he started ripping that of his father he said he was the cause of his anger. He told me that he felt alone and when he was with me he felt alone and he is meant to be alone. He said that we had been in trouble six months ago and if I did not see it then I was blind. I told him if he wanted to think that to make him self feel better then go ahead. he told me he loved me but he had made decisions and he needs to move on. I asked him what decisions he said I left you don't you understand I left this house, I am now packing how can we turn back. He said he needed some time alone and said that he had told me he wanted to leave to mexico a while ago to leave everything behind, his school, his work, and that girl. He told me 10 years ago I found a letter that you wrote to me about how our relationship wasnt working. How many times we have to go through this I told him relationships have its ups and downs no relationship is perfect. He said let me go, just let me go. So i let him go. he said he needed to detach from me.

[happy ending]

so basically its his fathers fault, your fault and even this girl's fault. he could grow some balls, he might find them useful! i hope you are taking care of yourself!

[Passion]

Yes I am really trying to take care of myself. Right now though its hard as I am looking for a place for me to live. Staying here, in this house has become financially stressful and has too many memories that won't allow me to move on. So in a way i am struggling but I hope to make it on top. He just continues to feed me with lies and he does not want to admit the real cause. He does not see that without me, he would have never had the time to create all of his sculptures that he has, he would not have money to survive, he would not have the support and encouragement that he had to begin to create. He does not see it. I think that without me he would have still be working in menial jobs because no one not even his own family would have ever been there the way i was there for him. He was not able to count on anyone but me. I comforted him, I encouraged him, and I supported him in so many ways but he does not see this.

[happy ending]

well if its any comfort at some stage when the good times dry up, he will. he sounds like a parasite. please be as good to yourself as you where to him. save all that love and care for yourself until you are healed. then go out and find the love of your life. he's out there!