[Nats]

Thats a lot to think about...Thanks stressed, now Im stressed! :0)

I think if he didnt want to be with me, this whole thing would be easier on me...But everything I've posted on here, I've been over it with him time and time again...I dont love him, he knows it...His phone calls annoy me, he knows...I feel trapped at home, he knows...I try to be as honest as possible...It just bugs me when he doesnt listen sometimes...I guess Ill have to get used to that...

I was really upset when we fought and so, out of frustration, I posted...But when the heat cools off, I know, no matter what, that Im doing something to make a lot of people very happy, and thats the right thing. Duty and obligation to family and elders is a big deal in eastern cultures...And to constantly think about myself and what makes me happy doesnt get me anywhere...Marriages are not always based on love, if they were, maybe so many wouldnt end up in divorce...I do believe marriage is compromise and just because I look at escaping home as one of the advantages to my marriage, doesnt mean I wont devote time and attention to making this marriage work...