Thanks Caroline,
I've been coming to terms with last years escapades for the past couple weeks. I actually admitted the worst to my therapist this morning and to my best friend last night. I was ashamed I went along with so much, but when I realized I was drawn into it afraid to so no, I realized I should not be the one to feel shame. My therapist helped to feel better today also. And just admitting it helped. H wanted a wife that he could use as a hooker but I had to live with him. It was the most damaging thing he's done and was the absolute that made me decide to divorce him. He still thinks I am wrong to think this way and cannot seem to undertand why I cannot have a healthy relationship with him anymore. Oh well, live and learn. I understand men have fantasies that we think are weird or wrong, but when the husband decides to live out all his fantasies at the expense of his wife - the person he swore to love and cherish.... just not right.
I've been coming to terms with last years escapades for the past couple weeks. I actually admitted the worst to my therapist this morning and to my best friend last night. I was ashamed I went along with so much, but when I realized I was drawn into it afraid to so no, I realized I should not be the one to feel shame. My therapist helped to feel better today also. And just admitting it helped. H wanted a wife that he could use as a hooker but I had to live with him. It was the most damaging thing he's done and was the absolute that made me decide to divorce him. He still thinks I am wrong to think this way and cannot seem to undertand why I cannot have a healthy relationship with him anymore. Oh well, live and learn. I understand men have fantasies that we think are weird or wrong, but when the husband decides to live out all his fantasies at the expense of his wife - the person he swore to love and cherish.... just not right.
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