I hope this isn't too much tmi so apologies for the long post but I want to try and give as much info as I can. I should start by saying that I'm 22 and a virgin. I'm not overly clued up on the workings on "down there" but I know that the hymen can break other ways.
Anyway, about 4 years ago, I had a spell of abnormal periods, and one time when wiping I felt a lump. Back then I concluded it was my cervix and thought nothing of it. Anyway, recently (last year or two) I kept feeling a lump or something when wiping after having a pee, and at that point, I used a mirror to look and I noticed there was a flesh tongue shaped thing in my vagina. It seems quite large (well to me anyway), the main part of it is probably like a 2p shape but I haven't measured it or anything so I don't know how accurate that it.
It seems to come from far back and come out into the main part (if that makes sense. But like I said, I'm not very clued up on this area as I never did much sex ed at school because I rarely attended due to anxiety). Sometimes it seems to be in a relatively non-worrying position but lately it seems a lot further forwards, almost poking out, and it just looks different than I remember it did when I first noticed it. Right now, it seems incredibly close to the opening, I can see (what I guess is normal) ragged squiggly bits of flesh right towards the top. It also seems to come more forward after having a poo (<- sorry).
It doesn't hurt as such, it just generally feels uncomfortable, mainly because I know it's there and I am over thinking about it constantly. When I can touch it, it has some kind of sensation but I don't know how to describe it. And sometimes it tingles and feels strange, but again, that's usually if I am over thinking about it.
I have hypochondria and OCD so I seem to have this obsession and compulsion to look up there frequently to see if it looks different or the same. The doctors isn't totally out of the question but I am trying to avoid it as much as possible because of a huge fear of them. And to be honest, I don't particularly want anyone looking up there or even touching if it came to that too. But this is driving me beyond insane to the point that even using the bathroom fills me with dread because I just can't deal with the worry this is causing me.
I should also mention that I have no problems peeing - it comes out fine and it seems to be emptied afterwards, my period flows as normal, I don't need to frequently urinate or anything, unless I'm over thinking about it.
The closest I have got to even remotely concluded anything was that it was a hymen remnant of some kind but that has completely gone out the window again because I'm still concerned it's something else and more worrying.
Sorry for the long post, but I was just wondering if what I'm describing a hymen remnant of some kind?
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