[Amber]

OK another book. You can check her out online too, Mama Gena. Regina Thomashauer and her husband run a relationship workshop buisiness. I don't agree with her about everything - not into the just go out and get laid thinking, but she and her Sister Goddesses are into keeping it juicy. This is what Tex is talking about. She's a lot of fun and makes some really good points about womanhood, sexuality and pleasure.

Thanks WC, I'll check that out.

I'm still waiting for Amazon to send me the other book. They are taking forever to send it!

[Texinator]

Any sensual experiences today, Amber?

[Amber]

Any sensual experiences today, Amber?

Nope, not so far. I haven't left the house so didn't discover anything about the nature around me. As for food, even though I tried, nothing I have eaten turned out sensual. Other than chocolate, I haven't run into anything that has given me that experience yet. But then I haven't been eating too much fruit lately. So far I'm not that good on this senses thing but I'm guessing I will eventually get the hand of it. At least I hope so. I haven't gotten around to the touching arms, legs, or whatever yet today. Just not in the mood so far.

I was looking online for a bit for some more single event clubs today. I belong to a bunch but a lot of them are just not doing any events. It aggravates me that my ex has taken all the local live music groups but there is nothing that I really can do about it. He is already in them and I'm not about to take the chance of running into him. He may be able to handle that but I know I wouldn't be able to. I found one or two women only clubs that I added to my list, not music ones, different kind of events.

[Amber]

I'm thinking about that thread of the craziest place you have done it. I don't have any interesting stories to add to that one. The next guy, I hope he can make it interesting. But after we make love a few times at his place.

I remember the first time I lay on a bed with my ex and it wasn't at his place. It actually was in a furniture store. It was actually just the mattress and box spring but still. That was a really fun day. I also posed lying on one of the complete beds for him and he took a picture of me. But then later on, every time we did something in his bedroom, it was just the mattress and box spring also. The head board didn't come in time before my last time there at his place. He must have it by now. Not that I care about a headboard. It just s*cks that we won't have anymore times like that.

I wonder where my first interesting place will be with the next guy. And this is all after I start masurbating. I would have hoped to accomplish that before I get in bed with another guy.

[Texinator]

And this is all after I start masurbating. I would have hoped to accomplish that before I get in bed with another guy.

Well you'll need to be able to tell him what you like. Can't expect him to know if you don't know.

[Amber]

Last night turned out to be an interesting night for a little bit there. Once the wine had started to kick in and I left here, I went to my bedroom. I slipped on the low cut purple babydoll and put on my Enya. WC, I love that CD! Thanks for suggesting it.

The wine actually did help some because I tried something I don't usually do. I started to touch myself lightly on my chest and above my breast. And when I paid attention to what I was doing, slowly and lightly touching myself, I felt some of those wonderful shivers. It is funny but my breast can be pretty sensitive but the actual nipple is not sensitive at all. Along my arm pit and the inside of my arm can be pretty sensitive also. Now if I just touched myself normally in those places, it wouldn't be sensitive. It is just when I touch lightly, I start to need to take deep breaths. Also I went to the inside of my thighs, that lead to my privates. But I didn't enter there.

I lasted about ten minutes before the thoughts of how it would have been much sweeter with a guy crept in. But it was a start, I guess. I honestly can say if I was to get wet, I have a very good feeling I wouldn't even know it. And then I can't even imagine touching myself like this could cause an orgasm. I'm guessing I would have to be touching myself down below to have that kind of effect.

[Texinator]

That's a great start!

Yeah, inside your arms and your thighs are sensitive places, and the type of touch you use can make a big difference. Nipples are different for everyone. With some women just slightly brushing against them can be a huge turn on, others need to be on the rough side with them to get any sort of sensation, and some women don't really feel anything at all. But you can watch them to see if the other stuff is arousing you. If it feels good, they'll probably get harder and start sticking out more.

[Amber]

Tomorrow should be interesting. I'm having lunch with this guy that I have never met in person before. About more than a year ago, I had emailed this guy when I was still on one of those dating sites. He emailed me back a few weeks later and told me that he had a girlfriend already, just met her a few months before that. We emailed one or two times more and that is it. He offered to be just friends but at that time, I declined the offer.

When things were going down hill with that website a month or two later, I felt like having someone to just email so I took him up on his offer. So something like October 2008 to until February 2009, we emailed once or twice a week. I wasn't trying to win this guy over. I know he has a girlfriend and I'm fine with that. I figured I would never meet him anyways. I just saw him as a friend. He makes me laugh and I enjoyed emailing him. I stopped emailing him when he wanted to meet me. It just didn't feel right.

Well strangely enough, less than a week after my ex broke up with me for good, this guy emailed me asking me what's up. Knowing it would be nothing more than friends, I decided to email him again. I missed my ex emails so much and I figured what the heck. He only emails once or so a week but it is better than nothing. So last week, he asked to meet him again. I finally said, what the heck, lets go for it.

So we are meeting tomorrow at a restaurant for lunch. We are just friends. I'm not going to try and interfere with his relationship. I don't know about some people but I can easily be just friends with a guy. I have no idea if men can do the same or not for women you see in person.

[Amber]

When I was buying Like Water for Chocolate and Love, Pray and Eat, I didn't order them together. Like Water for Chocolate was backordered and I wanted to get the other book sooner. So I decided to find another book to avoid paying shipping. I think it was the book section that I found out about Kiss My Tiara.

I have no idea if it will help me or not. It may help with my self-asteme some but if anything it is making me laugh. I wanted something easy and not so serious to read. I'll get to the Love, Pray, and Eat one next. Right now I need a few laughs and this book his hilarious in parts.

[Amber]

I'm going out with friends tonight for trivia. An owner owns two restaurants, one my ex took me to for one of my first dates. I'm going to the other one tonight. It just brings back memories and I hate that. I guess I have to get use to it because I'm going to trivia at the end of the month at one of the same exact restaurants my ex took me out once for lunch. That day is going to be even harder to get through. I'm telling myself that I need to make new memories at the place. It just isn't that easy. I just hope I never have to go to the Dunkin Donuts, where I saw him the last time. I think that would hurt like !!