A little over a year ago I met a guy through one of my friends, we slept together and then for the next couple of months we hung out & hooked up. He didn't treat me very well, he took a lot of drugs, and just wasn't that great of a guy. At the time I didn't feel very good about myself, I was insecure and I went along with it. Eventually we just stopped calling each other, seeing each other, or running into each other.
I met another guy that became my boyfriend who at first treated me like a princess then it all went downhill. He was my first real relationship. It only lasted about 8 months but it completely changed me. I saw how I deserved to be treated and it made me so much stronger. Anyway.
On new years eve I ran into the first guy. Even though it was probably stupid of me, we slept together. But it was different. Afterwards I slept over at his house, we talked and cuddled. He kept telling me how he had no idea of was this sweet of a girl, how right this feels, and how he wished I was here every night to rub his tummy. He even told me how sorry he was for being so mean to me and it seemed so sincere. The next morning I woke up at 8am and my first reaction was just to leave. I was still in his sweatpants because it was waaaay too cold to just keep on my dress. His car keys were in his sweats. So I texted him, told him I had his keys. I drove back out to his house later to give him them. I only stayed for a few minutes to smoke a cigarette with him, it was kind of awkward, for the first couple of minutes he acted cute with me then he stopped. On the way home I got lost and called him for directions and on the phone he kept calling me 'baby' and all this stuff, whatever. Later that night he texted me 'karen' and I said 'yeah?' but then he never answered me and that's the last time we've talked.
I feel like I have all these feelings for him this time. We're both so different and he just made me feel so good. Every time I get a text I hope that it's him! I keep thinking about him and I just don't know what to do. As much as I'd like to text him and tell him how I feel I know I never could. I just don't know whats going on or if this was any different for him. I just wanted advice or opinions on the situation. Just anything! I just feel so... dumb and lost.
I met another guy that became my boyfriend who at first treated me like a princess then it all went downhill. He was my first real relationship. It only lasted about 8 months but it completely changed me. I saw how I deserved to be treated and it made me so much stronger. Anyway.
On new years eve I ran into the first guy. Even though it was probably stupid of me, we slept together. But it was different. Afterwards I slept over at his house, we talked and cuddled. He kept telling me how he had no idea of was this sweet of a girl, how right this feels, and how he wished I was here every night to rub his tummy. He even told me how sorry he was for being so mean to me and it seemed so sincere. The next morning I woke up at 8am and my first reaction was just to leave. I was still in his sweatpants because it was waaaay too cold to just keep on my dress. His car keys were in his sweats. So I texted him, told him I had his keys. I drove back out to his house later to give him them. I only stayed for a few minutes to smoke a cigarette with him, it was kind of awkward, for the first couple of minutes he acted cute with me then he stopped. On the way home I got lost and called him for directions and on the phone he kept calling me 'baby' and all this stuff, whatever. Later that night he texted me 'karen' and I said 'yeah?' but then he never answered me and that's the last time we've talked.
I feel like I have all these feelings for him this time. We're both so different and he just made me feel so good. Every time I get a text I hope that it's him! I keep thinking about him and I just don't know what to do. As much as I'd like to text him and tell him how I feel I know I never could. I just don't know whats going on or if this was any different for him. I just wanted advice or opinions on the situation. Just anything! I just feel so... dumb and lost.
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