I've been with my boyfriend for almost two years. We both have pasts involving the same addiction and were clean when we met, not knowing about each others past.
That might not even be relevant, other than that I can relate to his problems. But I also dated a kid for three years, dealing with the problems I now face again.
My boyfriend won 14000 playing poker last february. In the months following I seriously suspected drug use to the point where it became an almost daily discussion. He made me feel crazy every time I accused him, literally calling me mental. Six months later, his mom drug tests him and the drug showed up and my world just fell apart. How can you lie for six months??? Face to face, making ME feel like **** for ever thinking of it! But a part of me stayed, giving him another chance because he "loves me so much"
And everything seemed ok.
Five months later, he gets arrested with attempt to sell. He swears it was a one time thing to make money and that he wasnt using again. I drug tested him a week before getting arrested and he was fine...
But using or not, he keeps going behind my back.. the drug in general is a touchy subject for me, im proud of who I am now but not my past. And he keeps reminding me of it, and my ex. But he swears he loves me and now he has a lawyer trying to drop the charges...
Hes 23. Not some little kid.
I just dont want to be a fool, and allow it to keep happening. He already promised to change but here we are. When is it time to walk away? I love him but how do I know it wont happen again? Im out of ideas
That might not even be relevant, other than that I can relate to his problems. But I also dated a kid for three years, dealing with the problems I now face again.
My boyfriend won 14000 playing poker last february. In the months following I seriously suspected drug use to the point where it became an almost daily discussion. He made me feel crazy every time I accused him, literally calling me mental. Six months later, his mom drug tests him and the drug showed up and my world just fell apart. How can you lie for six months??? Face to face, making ME feel like **** for ever thinking of it! But a part of me stayed, giving him another chance because he "loves me so much"
And everything seemed ok.
Five months later, he gets arrested with attempt to sell. He swears it was a one time thing to make money and that he wasnt using again. I drug tested him a week before getting arrested and he was fine...
But using or not, he keeps going behind my back.. the drug in general is a touchy subject for me, im proud of who I am now but not my past. And he keeps reminding me of it, and my ex. But he swears he loves me and now he has a lawyer trying to drop the charges...
Hes 23. Not some little kid.
I just dont want to be a fool, and allow it to keep happening. He already promised to change but here we are. When is it time to walk away? I love him but how do I know it wont happen again? Im out of ideas
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