[XxcuttergirlxX]

I am a lesbian, and I have had one gf. We are both cutters and she started freaking out and talking about suicide pairs. As in: suicide. TOGETHER. I don't want to die and so I broke up with her and I am looking for a girlfriend but I can't find anyone at my school who is bi or les and I'm frustrated to death. Is there a way to tell? How can you tell? I have always needed someone in my life who will be by my side and support me but I think all the girls in my school are straight. Sometimes I look at guys too, and I have had three boyfriends. One of them dropped out and I left him cuz he dropped his education, the second one dumped me for an ex and he won't talk to me anymore, the last one is my friend but we broke up. I'm pretty sure the last one is my soulmate, but I'm scared to tell him. I still love him and I would take a bullet for him any day. We met at the funeral of our best friend Chris and became friends. I think he still loves me. What do I do?? Do I. Ask him out? Do I leave it be? I'm scared to confess my love to him...

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If you are serious about this, you need to seek professional help. If your life is in danger because of a harmful habit like cutting, you need someone with experience how to handle that problem so they can help you.

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I prefer reading your name as I read it.

xcuttergirl.

Welcome to WH.

Firstly, you are not a lesbian. You've had 3 boyfriends and feel as if the last one is your soulmate and you are in love with him..

You may be bi-sexual. But, honestly, you may just want love full stop and gender doesn't count (yet) in your life.

To me anyone that cuts to gain the feeling of peace, has a lot of issues to deal with but they can be dealt with. I know of several that have been on this Forum over the last 5 years that have an awesome life now and no longer cut.

Be very, very, wary and it appears that you are of others that try to suggest a pact of suicide. This is their problem not yours and I would let someone in authority know. You may save a life.

Do you know why this boy broke up with you? Before you perhaps let him know how you feel. Does he know that you cut, that you have since, I assume dated a girl?