[ablaze]

Does all marriage do not really last forever?
My dad died when I was 2.
But my mom told me that my dad have an affair.
My brother's marriage ended in an annulment.
There are so many porn on the internet and all I know is that men always love watching it.
Men likes women with big lusty chests.
I feel so low in self-esteem since some of my husband's online friends that he seems "emotionally bond with" are either fat...I'm not fat I'm skinny petite woman, not that I have problem with fat women. And seems like he liked them because of their fat chests and you-know-what they like to do them.
just comparing where did I go wrong.
They has kids and much older than I am.
He has lied to me and lied to his parents that I do this, I do that to him, so everytime I tell them something I feel like I'm the little girl who cried wolf all the time.
..........
I'm the person that wants to be always different and I told myself when I met him how lucky I am since he lied to me that he is different than other men out there....
And I'm overachiever whereas I told myself...that when I get married.
It will last forever but it seems like not so.
How do I deal with these problems?

[rcoreyus]

I met my wife 30 years ago. We've been married for 23. I still love her. Some relationships do last.


But many are far from perfect - and both partners need to work to make the relationship work. Of one doesn't care, it isn't worth staying.

If you aren't happy and it doesn't look like things will change, you should find someone else.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

I feel so low in self-esteem since some of my husband's online friends that he seems "emotionally bond with" are either fat...I'm not fat I'm skinny petite woman, not that I have problem with fat women. And seems like he liked them because of their fat chests and you-know-what they like to do them.
just comparing where did I go wrong.
They has kids and much older than I am.
He has lied to me and lied to his parents that I do this, I do that to him, so everytime I tell them something I feel like I'm the little girl who cried wolf all the time.
..........

I'm the person that wants to be always different and I told myself when I met him how lucky I am since he lied to me that he is different than other men out there....
And I'm overachiever whereas I told myself...that when I get married.
It will last forever but it seems like not so.

Unfortunately, "you married someone whom lied to you" , is still lying and is deliberately, in my opinion, bringing you down, wearing you down and making you feel like you need curves, boobs, yet once you were strong and knew that you were beautiful, inside and out.

Don't be concerned what his parents think... they will not be in your live for ever, because he won't.

Be concerned what he is taking away from you, your self - esteme, you.

Talk to your parents, close friends, start to get it out, off your "chest" as you are here, because that's what you really need to do at the moment. See this as it really is, not another marriage break up, not like "everyone" else at all, rather, you married a lier. Not your fault.

CW