[Sassy-snape]

I lived in isolation for years, even though i lived with my mum and brother i rarely interactd with them, so i had no friends, all i had was my dog since rehomed to a security firm due to aggression problems with other people.

the people i no are his friends that i have befriended so it is tough for me to go anywhere. work is extrmemly poor in my area, there are no public ativities at all. i would love to horse ride but cant afford it.

i dont want to come over to my mums because of the isolation. but i would rather stay here then be treated like he did the other day and i think this is the wake up call for him more then anything i can say.

that i would rather go somewhere i hate then stay and be treated like that

[CHANDLERS WISH]

Sounds like you have been through alot really and you are trying to make "light" "fun" but also know your self worth.

Appreciate that you have moved, his friends are yours, you want to do things but can't afford... I know it's way hard hey.

But, I guess this site is a start is it not? To being able to open up and talk and feel for a change...

Tell us how long you two have been together, when you moved with him, how you felt then hey and stuff..

It's a good place to talk..

CW

[Sassy-snape]

nearly 9 monthes, we fell for each other immediatly, moved in around a month into it, never have problems, but he stopped smoking two monthes ago and since then its been rocky, i came off the pill so im hormonal aswell.

But it was heaven, i couldnt spend enough time with him, he was my best friend, there was nothing he didnt no about me, and i never felt so comfortable with anyone in my life.

Im nervous of men due to past abuse so he has been teaching me how to live again basically.

The only problem is the shouting, it destroys any trust i have in a person and at the end i was expecting him to blow up any moment.

its all due to no time on his own.

he has been on his own for 10 years so he is rather set in his ways, and he was evil back in his younger days, a real bad boy. But not a sex pest at all which is why i fell for him, i trusted him immediatly, which never happens with me, i have very good judge of charactor.

[Sassy-snape]

The thing is i left now because i dont want to end up hating him.

i lost my home and my boyfriend in one day i didnt want to loose my friend aswell.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

But it was heaven, i couldnt spend enough time with him, he was my best friend, there was nothing he didnt no about me, and i never felt so comfortable with anyone in my life.

The thing is i left now because i dont want to end up hating him.

1.... People come into your life for a reason... souls on the otherhand stay for life, but, but, but, they can stay, purely on still "that time" what you need at that time.

Wow... So, this guy showed you, that it was ok, that not all guys are..... yeah... but also you know that way... but somehow there is a tad of past there, you know the one that says, fear, past...

Oh if only everyone was just " them" happy, carefree, knowledgeable about just being, and happy.

Lessions are to be learnt, or relived, to move on.

Ha... the evil little one will always try to get you but the "angels" will win... k, not religious rather, the normal way of thinking, the "good" always, always, succeeds and over rules eventually the "bad", it a matter of when.......................

So,,, you have things you can't quite forget... Hey? It's normal.,...

You have beliefs, wants, but any trigger, triggers, normal.

sooooooooooo SMILE...


You are NO DIFFERENT than anyone here, male, female, young, old only one difference:-


"We ALL are at different levels, times, in communication, or not yet.....

So, all things are worth working on,if they are working.



CW



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[anonymouswhitefemale]

I'm a guy -

Punch me and I will retaliate.

Want equality? Take equal responsibility.

Sure, I probably won't break a womans jaw - if she puches me I'd probably pin her to the ground and pour honey in her hair or something - but she will regret it. And that does not make me a bad person.

Expecting to get away with violence does.