[bluerain]

I am feeling so alone my ex up and left and took the kids with him and I new only ge tto see them once or twice a week I asked him whe ndo I get to see them and he keeps making things up I am so frustrated he use to say I love you but I guess I messed that one up by showing up a the park and tryed to talk to him and play with MY kids ages 2 and 4 he now does not say I love you and I am so hurt I asked him if its over and at the time he said yes I have cought him a few times saying I love you but now nowthing I say I love you and he just goes ok I am really hurt I have not slept in days and I cry all the time when I just think about him I love him so much and I want to call him. why do I still love him he has hurt me again and again with his words and I just keep thinking about him being ith another woman what if he already has someone . he doe snot talk to me as much so I have not called him I am giving him his space but its been since wends. since I say my 2 year old and my 4 year old does not want to see me . now I have to wait till maybe sunday because I have to work and the kids go to bed at 8 and I work till 6 15 and sigh I just really miss the family being together any ideas on what I can do please . try and be nice I am still very much in pain and my head is going around . thanks

[WildChild]

I can't imagine how difficult this must be, yet I know parents of both genders go through it daily. Are you actually divorced? Does he have custody? You should at least talk to the little ones every day. Draw them pictures and mail letters. Read stories on to tape or CD for them.

Would it be too difficult for you to talk about what led up to this? If he was still telling you he loves you until recently it may not be beyond repair?

[CHANDLERS WISH]

Hi sweet..

Yes, this would be very hard for you, in your introduction you mention 5 children? Were three his? And the two little ones are yours together?

Also that's a long day for you work wise, was he working when you were together?

I'm sorry for the questions but to give you some form of answers, it helps a little.

In the meantime, off course we are here just for you to speak and vent and talk until you want to open up more.

Take care sweet.

CW