Okay, well the party was last night.. And yes my ex was there!
Going to try and make a long story short here.
I don't know if it's because I thought my ex was going to be there.. But I wore a little black dress and my new shoes I had treated myself to during the week, and went to the party!
I had met with the girl sand we headed there, I walked in and saw all the guys, said hello to the one's I hadn't seen in a weeks and all was going good. Then I saw him, I just said hello and carried on. Keeping calm and cool and trying my best not to show that I was nervous and slightly panicked!
Anyway, later on in the night, I had went out for a smoke with one of the girls and him and another one of the guys were already out there. We stood together and talked, I didn't make any direct conversation to him but just joined in the conversation.
My friend then said to the guy who was out with my ex, "Oh could I talk to you in private for a sec", and they walked away, which of course left us to standing together.
He said I looked great and etc.. Then after the small talk was done, he said he was sorry for the way thing had ended and he hoped I'd be there tonight. He was going to call me to ask to meet up and talk, but the girls had told him how I seemed to have my mind made up that I was getting over him and there was no chance it could work. We talked for ages, and I told him about how I felt like I was wanting the relationship more, and willing to take the risks for it and so on.
He told me he was scared of the heartbreak he'd be going through if he lost me to someone younger and it seemed best for him to just end it and avoid that situation altogether. But then he told me because of the way he's felt in the past weeks since we finished made him realise, he'd rather have loved and lost, than not loved at all. We hugged and he told me he really missed me and I told him the same.
But I told him it wasn't the right time or place to be talking about it and that we would talk properly about it and meet up during the week.
Going to try and make a long story short here.
I don't know if it's because I thought my ex was going to be there.. But I wore a little black dress and my new shoes I had treated myself to during the week, and went to the party!
I had met with the girl sand we headed there, I walked in and saw all the guys, said hello to the one's I hadn't seen in a weeks and all was going good. Then I saw him, I just said hello and carried on. Keeping calm and cool and trying my best not to show that I was nervous and slightly panicked!
Anyway, later on in the night, I had went out for a smoke with one of the girls and him and another one of the guys were already out there. We stood together and talked, I didn't make any direct conversation to him but just joined in the conversation.
My friend then said to the guy who was out with my ex, "Oh could I talk to you in private for a sec", and they walked away, which of course left us to standing together.
He said I looked great and etc.. Then after the small talk was done, he said he was sorry for the way thing had ended and he hoped I'd be there tonight. He was going to call me to ask to meet up and talk, but the girls had told him how I seemed to have my mind made up that I was getting over him and there was no chance it could work. We talked for ages, and I told him about how I felt like I was wanting the relationship more, and willing to take the risks for it and so on.
He told me he was scared of the heartbreak he'd be going through if he lost me to someone younger and it seemed best for him to just end it and avoid that situation altogether. But then he told me because of the way he's felt in the past weeks since we finished made him realise, he'd rather have loved and lost, than not loved at all. We hugged and he told me he really missed me and I told him the same.
But I told him it wasn't the right time or place to be talking about it and that we would talk properly about it and meet up during the week.
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