[Hopeless Dork]

Miss CW hit the most important point of all, enjoying the relationship without fear. Its way too easy to get wrapped up in trying to protect ourselves from some sort of potential future hurt that we destroy any chance at day to day happiness. If there ever comes a point the one we loves cheats... there is no way to really prevent it, if it is what they wish to do. But if they never do and never had the intention...its tragic to have wasted all that time and energy fretting over it.

Either way there comes a point when you have to surrender to trust in order to be truly happy. Yep, in doing so that does mean we can be blind-sided by something we were not expecting... but that can happen even if you are waiting and watching for it. So yes, just enjoy the moments ... so long as you feel loved, respected and special .. its okay to just let go and relish in the good.

[BabyGirl]

A few (Key Partial Quotes ) have my Interest here.

Don't judge me for this

We aren't Judging you for Snooping, though it seems you are judging yourself and feeling Guilty about it

while I haven't worried about the whole gay thing in about a year, but I did. I'm not proud of it

If you weren't worried about it, you would not have Snooped to start with.You just would have been grateful he loaned you his Computer at all , so you weren't without one.

it appears that he has deleted all his history up until about a week ago. I can't imagine what else he might be hiding from me (he had obviously done this in preparation for me borrowing his computer) other than more gay stuff.

He very well may have deleted his History, I have mine set to delete every week, Automatically.. It doesn't mean that I am Hiding anything, It means I need more Disc Memory space or even RAM.

Though in your Mind ( POSSIBLY ) just because it has No Recent History, They must be something he is Hiding ?

I couldn't help but go further and look at his web history on his other web browser. There was little history on there too, so I can only imagine he's deleted that too. This sent alarm bells ringing, and without being sure what I was looking for I also looked in the trash on his computer. In here, I found something which really upset me. Dated February 2010, there is a body shot of a guy in his boxers, which looks like it was taken on a webcam.

Here you say ...You Couldn't Help yourself? Honey, yes you could have.. If the past was the Past, the answers and apologies were taken and Given and Forgiven.

The Other Browser was the same . No history or little . That is pretty normal for People who set a History Delete Option.

Pic of guy in boxers, looks like taken with webcam, dated 2010.

Some of us Forget to Take Out the Trash, as part of a Normal Clean up Schedule. I have to personally go in and Empty mine, I forget that Trash is different than History. And until I go through my Whole Computer ( usually wondering why it's slow or no RAM or Physical Memory left ). I will find Pic's of a Cat or Bird that I rescued and found a Home for, therefore Deleted it, then found the Animal was Not permanently re-homed. Glad I hadn't taken out the Trash , because there it was . When I needed it, I also have found things I thought I " Threw away " and they were there too .

Well yep it may have been.. The Pic might have been taken by webcam, those can be transferred into Jpegs and Gifs and saved and Emailed and such,the same as the " Facebook, self Pic's are taken ".
The 2010, is what is the Issue, that was 2 years ago .. Again, if all was forgiven, talked about and you two moved " On " in the relationship.

I am glad you talked with him about this, I'm Glad that you have seemed to Solve this Issue. Now Let it Go, Be Happy..

If it makes you and he both feel Better and more Trusting of Each other, Give each other your Computers, let the Other put in Restriction / Passwords for " Adult Content ". And then not give each other the Password for a Year. If you can both trust each other, learn to know each other, you will not ever need to " Snoop or Check on Each Others Computers " They will both be Blocked to any kind of Porn or Sites that either of you may be Concerned about .
Then you will have Built up some Trust.