[sHaRu]

Please forgive me if there is a lot of errors in my writing, I am on an old smart phone.

So heres the deal im 26 shes 32, maybe 33 now, but I doubt it. We use to work at the same tech recruiting firm a year ago but I got fired and she joined up with another recruiting firm.

When we use to work together, I dont think she liked me at first but as time went on we got closer, txted here and there and we played draw my thing on breaks sometimes, and then she was so sweet because she would try to inspire me by putting videos of like rocky balboa videos on my facebook to get me boosted so that way I would be good on the phone. No girl has done that for me before.

I started to get in troble alittle cause I would chat to her a lil to much on instant message. So I told her nothin personal but I have to stop chatting during work, and she was nice and even after work for like 2 mins I chattwd to her but then something happened, I have no idea what, but it was like she was no longwr warm & fuzzy, just "work" didnt return txt anymore. Either.

My heart tells me because maybe I didnt try to puruse her like get on the phone and chat aftwr work or someth ig even if it meant for 5 mins. But I may be totally wrong.

Anyway after not being around her and looking back on how kind and caring she was, I camt stop thinking about her, I want her, I want to be her man and I want her to be my gurl.

So I figured since we are both tech recruiters, and our job requires us to look over hundreds of resumes a week... I am going to create a LOVE RESUME for her and tell her, "I found a really good fit" but then it will be me explaining how im imto her, and I want to have a meaningful relationship.

Where experience goes her name will be there and for date it,will say 5/30 meet on fb at this time. Just so we can chat, then after a few mins ill end it with this was fun lets do it again , the second ti,e I will encoyrage us to get on the phone to socially chat for 10 mins or so... Once things go good see if one of us can meet eachother in one of there states. Im in az shes in north cali, SF.

I didnt realize until last week byt she fits what I want in a girl.

Back in 09 I wrote 10 traits I want in a girl.

They were like beautiful for the first one, um open minded, smart, and thenn things ljke indepent. I want a girl who ca take care of themselves incase I die.and shes food at that.,shes been single for a while.

I also want to be the guy who spemds time and effort breaking down her walls, and healing her heart. I seeiously feel I could love this girl wit all my heart.

the downsides is ive gained a lot of weight. Im 300 now. I did that to protect myself I feel subconscioualy because I been hurting from women(my mom). Ive only had sex once, because I have a history of pushing girls away aftee I tyrned like 23, and yeah. Its not fair that shes beautiful, fit, successful, and im struggling. But I want tio wlrk on that. I want to focus 100 percent, and by doing that, I will take care of mysekf because she deserves a quality man.all women do.

Aany advice would be nice.

[sHaRu]

When I said breaking down walls is because she gas trust issues, shes been cheated many times by a man she loved ib the past. This may be the reason she has been single for a couple years.

Btw it would really suck if she.so happened to be on this forum... Awkward... Oe would it?

[jns]

She may be looking at you as a friend, not a lover. You need to have a conversation with her to find out if she feels somewhat the same as you do.

[sHaRu]

If I am not mistaken or wrong I think we all kind of start on a friend level to a point, its what you do that either.changes that friendship in a relationship or not. I like the challenge.

The first girl when I was 19 had no remote attraction to me w ha t so ever lol. But I was deterined to focus, get hwalthye, look good (fashion) and raise my head high.

After doinvg all this, she knew it as about her, and she seemed quite turned on by it. Whenshe would see m out of the blue she wpuld nervous and get these like little hiccups, even if I.hugged. Her.

[sHaRu]

Missy says : Why do I always get hiccups when I talk to this guy I like?"

Someone answers: Your diaphragm is irritated, Lol. Just try to relax more.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

You have a good sense of humor Welcome to the Forum.

You know she might honestly, just have a good heart and was being friendly... But, you won't know until you try.

I don't think a love letter is appropriate yet. I think getting back in touch with her, using your humor and then making a joke like " If only you lived here, I'd take you to the best restaurant tonight, pick you up, drop you home and kiss you on the fore-head".. See her reaction.

As for over - weight.. Comfort eating huh? Time to love you, look after you and get all that guts that you really have inside and bring it to the outside.. Then not only this girl but several others will see the inner beauty in you.

Oh and don't look for "beautiful" first in a woman. Every woman is beautiful, it's the inside of this woman that you have now fallen for. That was meant to be like that from the beginning. Look deeper.

CW