[MysteriousAtNight]

I fell in love for the first time with a man who was 5 years older then me. He then left me for his ex girlfriend[of seven years he threw in my face when we broke up).
Now its been about 3 years and hes in jail. The thing is i wrote to him. I cant get him out of my mind and hes still the same person who i fell in love with. Im head over heels with him i cant find anyone attractive and who can make me smile like he does. i havent told me any of that. We had an amazing chemistry and shared our thug secrets.i think i pushed him away.
Everything changed after i lost 2 friends gunshots/stabbing[probably gang related] my lifes hard as his childhood is. :/
we share things we dont talk to others. and i thought we where just SEX. until he dumped me and it was all over

Hell be home in a month but the question remains should i just be his friend or show him im still interested in us? HELP HELP HELP. MY LETTER ARRIVES TMMRW

[CHANDLERS WISH]

You know, lost souls are just that unfortunately.

Everyone makes good and bad choices in life. But, if they keep making the wrong ones? Then, is there a future there?

Maybe you did have chemistry it's an amazing thing for sure. Maybe also you both had things in common and were able to share and talk about them, but , 7 years with one person.... and to return to her...

If I can say, you shared a moment, you crossed paths, did you learn anything? Yes, what love feels like, what talking to someone about your problems who listens feels like.

That is life.

It's what is meant to happen, we meet people for reasons.

Hun, love what you had and go and find it with someone without problems and baggage and just be friends.

You aren't anyone's sex buddy, friends with benefits is that.. Sex is wild and there can be a friendship...

You know you are seeking now for what you want in life, that was a taste.

[MysteriousAtNight]

I'm actually reading 50 Shades Of Grey, And hes probably fifty shades of **** up too.


I THINK I WANNA CHANGE BUT NOT FOR EXCHANGE. WHEN I PRAY, LIFE LONG IVE FELT WRONG.
I HAVEN'T FELT LIKE CAPTURING MOMENTS. FOREVER BECOMES SAD CHECKPOINTS.
TO DIE IN THE MOMENT I SWEAR IT IS MINE. WHITE WINE IS A GREAT TASTE THAT STEALS AFFECTIVE.
BABY MY SOUL AND AFFECTIONS ARE SAFE WHERE THEY BELONG.BUT I INSIST AND WILL REMAIN ON MY PATH DIRECTION.
LOVE AND AFFECTION ABOVE ALL IS ADMITTING MY LADYLOVE TO BE PROTECTED.
MY MIND FEELS NUMB SO I FEEL NO FEAR . COLORS AREN'T BLACK AND WHITE


IS IT ALREADY TO MUCH TO SAY? OR HAVEN'T I TOLD U ABOUT MY NEVER-ENDING SPENT GOOD-DAYS.
PRIDE IN THEE AIR SPENT WITH YOU! HOW DID OUR PATHS GET COLLIDED ?
LIFE IS HUMANITY AND FULL WITH MUSIC AND STORIES.

But i believe his friendship would be the real taste.Never know :]

[CHANDLERS WISH]

There you go, write a book obviously you are passionate