Hi,
I'm a 37 year old married woman currently separated from my husband and I'm seeing a married man P. It was fun when it started because we both thought it would be a fling. I met him February 24, 2008 during that time I had advised him that I and my husband were getting ready to go through a separation and we just needed to decide who was going to move out. He said he too was separated.
Well after seeing this man and hanging out all hours of the night with him I decided it was best I move out so that I wouldn't continue to disrespect my husband and marriage while living at home. I held up to my end of bargain as stated when I first met this dude. I've been in my apartment since March 27, 2008 (approximately 2 1/2 months).
Even with all the hanging out to the early hours of the morning, the next day or even Mothers Day weekend in Galveston Texas. That's right Mothers Day Weekend. Can you believe this man is actively living at home with his wife? He says he's in love me and he loves me very deeply but he's still at home with his wife and two sons 6 and 8. We spend 4-6 days out of the week together. He comes straight after work around 6p-10p and sometimes he'll go home and come around 7p-4a. We even hang out on one if not both weekend days. During that time we go to the clubs for drinks, dancing and entertainment. He gives me money and lots of quality time. Did I mention that we also spend my lunch breaks together from 2-3 days weekly when he's in between work assignments? My friends say I see him more than they see there single boyfriends.
With all that being said he's still at home with his wife V. I've come to the painful conclusion that this man despite what he says is at home with his wife because he wants to be. That's so painful because I'm deeply in love with this man. At the age of 37 I have fallen in love for the first time. It's so sad that I must end it. It has only been several months (February 24, 2008 till now June 12, 2008). I refuse to let it go on for 6 months or more. I've just started seeing a therapist as of yesterday because I really need help. I'm in too deep to go through this alone. I want to take full responsibly by addressing the real issue of what's going on with me the reason why I'm in this situation.
I love him very much but I don't want to continue down this pathway the way it is because it's very destructive to me and my self esteem. I have become so emotional since all of this. I'm often sad and I cry a lot. I'm not really enjoying life these days. Here it is I've finally gotten away from my husband just to go through this stuff. Life should be great for me right now. Let me explain why. I had weight loss surgery nearly two years ago and I just recently had a tummy tuck. I've also landed a new career making 10k more than previous job. I am really tripping.
Also let's touch on the subject of my husband. He's made some real changes since I've been gone but not enough to bring me home. How ever my therapist asked me a question about my husband and my response was “if we were stranded and we only had one piece of chicken he would give it to me while he starved". The therapist said “WOW! You still admire him". I've never thought of it like that. May be I have all that I need. Anyway I’m not sure but I will finish out my six month apartment lease.
I'm ashamed because I just want things to work out between P and myself but I know it's not. Did I mention he had and eight year affair that just ended prior to us meeting? This is someone he was seeing before and after him and Vgot married. Yes, he was seeing this woman T for all of his marriage. He told me she finally broke it off because she just couldn't take it anymore however they still talk according to him and the phone bill.
I just wanted to share this sick and twisted story with others. The million dollar question is why do I feel like I'm the one that completes him? What's your feed back?
I'm a 37 year old married woman currently separated from my husband and I'm seeing a married man P. It was fun when it started because we both thought it would be a fling. I met him February 24, 2008 during that time I had advised him that I and my husband were getting ready to go through a separation and we just needed to decide who was going to move out. He said he too was separated.
Well after seeing this man and hanging out all hours of the night with him I decided it was best I move out so that I wouldn't continue to disrespect my husband and marriage while living at home. I held up to my end of bargain as stated when I first met this dude. I've been in my apartment since March 27, 2008 (approximately 2 1/2 months).
Even with all the hanging out to the early hours of the morning, the next day or even Mothers Day weekend in Galveston Texas. That's right Mothers Day Weekend. Can you believe this man is actively living at home with his wife? He says he's in love me and he loves me very deeply but he's still at home with his wife and two sons 6 and 8. We spend 4-6 days out of the week together. He comes straight after work around 6p-10p and sometimes he'll go home and come around 7p-4a. We even hang out on one if not both weekend days. During that time we go to the clubs for drinks, dancing and entertainment. He gives me money and lots of quality time. Did I mention that we also spend my lunch breaks together from 2-3 days weekly when he's in between work assignments? My friends say I see him more than they see there single boyfriends.
With all that being said he's still at home with his wife V. I've come to the painful conclusion that this man despite what he says is at home with his wife because he wants to be. That's so painful because I'm deeply in love with this man. At the age of 37 I have fallen in love for the first time. It's so sad that I must end it. It has only been several months (February 24, 2008 till now June 12, 2008). I refuse to let it go on for 6 months or more. I've just started seeing a therapist as of yesterday because I really need help. I'm in too deep to go through this alone. I want to take full responsibly by addressing the real issue of what's going on with me the reason why I'm in this situation.
I love him very much but I don't want to continue down this pathway the way it is because it's very destructive to me and my self esteem. I have become so emotional since all of this. I'm often sad and I cry a lot. I'm not really enjoying life these days. Here it is I've finally gotten away from my husband just to go through this stuff. Life should be great for me right now. Let me explain why. I had weight loss surgery nearly two years ago and I just recently had a tummy tuck. I've also landed a new career making 10k more than previous job. I am really tripping.
Also let's touch on the subject of my husband. He's made some real changes since I've been gone but not enough to bring me home. How ever my therapist asked me a question about my husband and my response was “if we were stranded and we only had one piece of chicken he would give it to me while he starved". The therapist said “WOW! You still admire him". I've never thought of it like that. May be I have all that I need. Anyway I’m not sure but I will finish out my six month apartment lease.
I'm ashamed because I just want things to work out between P and myself but I know it's not. Did I mention he had and eight year affair that just ended prior to us meeting? This is someone he was seeing before and after him and Vgot married. Yes, he was seeing this woman T for all of his marriage. He told me she finally broke it off because she just couldn't take it anymore however they still talk according to him and the phone bill.
I just wanted to share this sick and twisted story with others. The million dollar question is why do I feel like I'm the one that completes him? What's your feed back?
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