ok....where do i start....My husband and I have been married over 13 years and lived together for 15. Last Febuary I got pregnant (which we were trying for our first), and I guess I was a . I was hormonal, in terrible pain all the time (had nerve damage down legs and would fall), emotional, and just constant pain. During this time, he kind of checked out on me. Went out almost every night, sometimes until 4am. During this time, (I can remember in August last year), he told me he did love me....right before the baby was born, he said I was his main priority that everything to go right in the delivery. I should importantly mention, that during the pregnancy, our bills were adding up. I told him I could not pay the bills, and it was too emotionally difficult to deal with them. I did not pay them, neither did he, so they sat and went into the collection now. We had the baby late november and during the time to adjust to a new baby was difficult and fun for both of us. We enjoyed being new parents (and still both do). My hormones simmered down and around may I finally felt like my old self permantely.
Then on June 6th, he told me he didnt love me anymore. I was devistated. On the 9th, he told me something was there, on the 11th nothing was there, on the 14th, something was there, 16th nothing there, then on the 19th told me he wanted to move out and live with his mom and me live with mine so we could pay the bills., He didnt go and on the 24th we went to therapy (which he didnt care to go again), then on the 26th he woke me up and told me that he loved me and things were not going to change, he was sorry, and he knew his feelings for me were love....then July 3rd said he didnt love me anymore, then on the 11th we got in a fight and he said that was it, it was over and he was walking out the door that moment and filing for divorce on Monday.
I knew my husband had been on facebook all the time (hours and hours early morning and late nights), I hacked into his account and read his facebook email. There were 50-100 emails back and forth daily to one woman. She lives pretty far, he had told me they were friends. Conversations about me and him and her. No I love you's , but deep feelings of caring for one another. Reading the emails, you can see that she would say to him that she would no longer talk to him, too much going on in his life (blah blah blah)....so then he would run to email her saying not to go. They would get in fights and she would not talk to him, and he would run to apologize. I found out that last week he called her to apologize to her again because she wouldnt talk to him. Funny, he wrote in his emails that he never apologizes to anyone, not even his wife (which is true, fights with family or me, he has never been one to say it first), but I have never threatened to leave him when we fight, Im sure if I did that nice trick he would have (but im not into playing those kind of games)......
So, 2 days later, he came back said he would try again, back on the 13th....well, on the 23rd he said he was moving out on the 26th which he did. He took pretty much all his stuff and said he needed time to see if he was happy, because he is not happy anymore. He has no plans to want to go to counceling or hang out and give it a shot. I see him every other day , he comes over to babysit when I am at work during the day. We dont say much. Since he has left, he goes out everynight. Not sure if he is happy or not.
My heart is ripped out, dont know what to do.
Then on June 6th, he told me he didnt love me anymore. I was devistated. On the 9th, he told me something was there, on the 11th nothing was there, on the 14th, something was there, 16th nothing there, then on the 19th told me he wanted to move out and live with his mom and me live with mine so we could pay the bills., He didnt go and on the 24th we went to therapy (which he didnt care to go again), then on the 26th he woke me up and told me that he loved me and things were not going to change, he was sorry, and he knew his feelings for me were love....then July 3rd said he didnt love me anymore, then on the 11th we got in a fight and he said that was it, it was over and he was walking out the door that moment and filing for divorce on Monday.
I knew my husband had been on facebook all the time (hours and hours early morning and late nights), I hacked into his account and read his facebook email. There were 50-100 emails back and forth daily to one woman. She lives pretty far, he had told me they were friends. Conversations about me and him and her. No I love you's , but deep feelings of caring for one another. Reading the emails, you can see that she would say to him that she would no longer talk to him, too much going on in his life (blah blah blah)....so then he would run to email her saying not to go. They would get in fights and she would not talk to him, and he would run to apologize. I found out that last week he called her to apologize to her again because she wouldnt talk to him. Funny, he wrote in his emails that he never apologizes to anyone, not even his wife (which is true, fights with family or me, he has never been one to say it first), but I have never threatened to leave him when we fight, Im sure if I did that nice trick he would have (but im not into playing those kind of games)......
So, 2 days later, he came back said he would try again, back on the 13th....well, on the 23rd he said he was moving out on the 26th which he did. He took pretty much all his stuff and said he needed time to see if he was happy, because he is not happy anymore. He has no plans to want to go to counceling or hang out and give it a shot. I see him every other day , he comes over to babysit when I am at work during the day. We dont say much. Since he has left, he goes out everynight. Not sure if he is happy or not.
My heart is ripped out, dont know what to do.
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