First off I would like to say. I can't sit in silence any more. I have no friends, no one to talk to, and I am hurting very deeply. Here is my story.
About March/April my husband started being really mean to me, i would talk to him, and he would stare off into space like i wasn't saying anything. I would make him dinner, every night and always make sure it was hot when he came home. He would sometimes not eat, say he didnt feel good and go to bed. Not without making me cry though, just really mean behavior.
Around, this time I was about 6-7 months pregnant with our second child. I would want to make love, and be intimate and he told me he wasn't sexually attracted to me, and how he wanted to have sex with women that weren't all used up. Really hurt me bad I cried for days. I even told my sister what he said, because at the time she was my only friend.
Well a few weeks went by, and my husband would always insist my sister come out, we lived about 30 min out of town. Well he would bring my sister out to spend the night and spend time with her niece, my daughter. But in the morning she would always leave early and say she didn't want to get stuck out there. So my husband would drive her in because he was on his way to work.
Well anyways, one of these nights, he had picked her up she called earlier that day and asked if she could come out i said no, me and mark are having problems, when your around he acts really weird. We just need our alone time. Mark called and said your sister wants to come out i said no. Don't pick her up.
Well its about time for my husband to come home and he is really late like an hour. I had made dinner hot as usual, and in walks my sister and my husband, i take my husband upstairs and accuse him of sleeping with my sister. Because his story and timing just don't make sense. He said they got stuck on a muddy road, which there was one by our house, we do live in ak. Anyways, he denies everything my sister acts hurt, like i shouldn't have come out. When i told her in the first place not to. Then eventually we go about our bussiness, she goes home next day as usual and life carries on.
We had recently moved into town, because i couldn't take living in the woods anymore, and i ask my sister about 2 weeks after i gave birth to our daughter, did you or mark ever do anything. And she says yes, i asked him the day before and he denied it. I said well what happened, she said that night we got stuck i asked him to buy as alcohol we pulled over walked down a dirt path, and he begged me to have sex with him. He was really persistant, and used vulgour words, and talked like a snake.
The things she told me make my stomach turn thinking as i write this. She said, nothing happened, but there were about 15 times in the last 4 months were he would tell her, she could live with him and raise our kids and kick me out. And she was his forbidden fruit, he wanted to be in a relationship with her, go to a hotel and have sex and party. Really messed up stuff, he also confided in her stuff like he was hiding getting drunk from me, and all his dirty laundry.
Well i confronted my husband, he didn't deny it but he wouldn't tell me what he said to her, or anything on his own. Very cowardly. I also found out when i was in the hospital right after having our daughter he went home to take a nap and watch our oldest, well come to find out, he asked her to lay in the bed with him. Then we all had a sit down to get everything out confessed and move on, at the end of the convo, my sister said i cant do this anymore i sat on marks lap and he grabbed my boob.
He was never even going to tell me on his own. He said he felt to guilty to tell me, he thought he would lose me. Yuck. I cant stand these images in my head. I am glad I know now, but I am haunted. He said he loves me, and he is sorry, everything you would imagine a cheater to say. I don't know how or if I should forgive him, both my sister and him act like everything is fine.
I am just really hurt. Any insight, or guidance would be helpful. Sorry about sucha long post.
God bless, Miriah
About March/April my husband started being really mean to me, i would talk to him, and he would stare off into space like i wasn't saying anything. I would make him dinner, every night and always make sure it was hot when he came home. He would sometimes not eat, say he didnt feel good and go to bed. Not without making me cry though, just really mean behavior.
Around, this time I was about 6-7 months pregnant with our second child. I would want to make love, and be intimate and he told me he wasn't sexually attracted to me, and how he wanted to have sex with women that weren't all used up. Really hurt me bad I cried for days. I even told my sister what he said, because at the time she was my only friend.
Well a few weeks went by, and my husband would always insist my sister come out, we lived about 30 min out of town. Well he would bring my sister out to spend the night and spend time with her niece, my daughter. But in the morning she would always leave early and say she didn't want to get stuck out there. So my husband would drive her in because he was on his way to work.
Well anyways, one of these nights, he had picked her up she called earlier that day and asked if she could come out i said no, me and mark are having problems, when your around he acts really weird. We just need our alone time. Mark called and said your sister wants to come out i said no. Don't pick her up.
Well its about time for my husband to come home and he is really late like an hour. I had made dinner hot as usual, and in walks my sister and my husband, i take my husband upstairs and accuse him of sleeping with my sister. Because his story and timing just don't make sense. He said they got stuck on a muddy road, which there was one by our house, we do live in ak. Anyways, he denies everything my sister acts hurt, like i shouldn't have come out. When i told her in the first place not to. Then eventually we go about our bussiness, she goes home next day as usual and life carries on.
We had recently moved into town, because i couldn't take living in the woods anymore, and i ask my sister about 2 weeks after i gave birth to our daughter, did you or mark ever do anything. And she says yes, i asked him the day before and he denied it. I said well what happened, she said that night we got stuck i asked him to buy as alcohol we pulled over walked down a dirt path, and he begged me to have sex with him. He was really persistant, and used vulgour words, and talked like a snake.
The things she told me make my stomach turn thinking as i write this. She said, nothing happened, but there were about 15 times in the last 4 months were he would tell her, she could live with him and raise our kids and kick me out. And she was his forbidden fruit, he wanted to be in a relationship with her, go to a hotel and have sex and party. Really messed up stuff, he also confided in her stuff like he was hiding getting drunk from me, and all his dirty laundry.
Well i confronted my husband, he didn't deny it but he wouldn't tell me what he said to her, or anything on his own. Very cowardly. I also found out when i was in the hospital right after having our daughter he went home to take a nap and watch our oldest, well come to find out, he asked her to lay in the bed with him. Then we all had a sit down to get everything out confessed and move on, at the end of the convo, my sister said i cant do this anymore i sat on marks lap and he grabbed my boob.
He was never even going to tell me on his own. He said he felt to guilty to tell me, he thought he would lose me. Yuck. I cant stand these images in my head. I am glad I know now, but I am haunted. He said he loves me, and he is sorry, everything you would imagine a cheater to say. I don't know how or if I should forgive him, both my sister and him act like everything is fine.
I am just really hurt. Any insight, or guidance would be helpful. Sorry about sucha long post.
God bless, Miriah
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